There are feelings that fill you up

that dig their roots into your skin

and never let go

they swell

and blow you over

like winds and waves

"I have learnt now that while those who speak about ones miseries usually hurt, those who keep silence hurt more"   - C.S Lewis

Christmas!!! Jolly Jolly Christmas.. 

I love Christmas.. good or bad how i spent my day.. I still love Christmas and how it makes me feel deep deep inside. It's warm.. it's fuzzy.. it feels like a hug. A season that I wna spend the entire evening, be it in a crowded place or just in my room, soaking on as much 'Love, giving, embrace' as I can. This is when you can sing christmas songs all day long and no one will stare weirdly at you saying "It's only February, dear". And of course, take pictures of beautiful festive lights like a tourist. Everybody seemed joyous on this day.. going around with smiles on their faces.. and nobody will scream at you for stepping on their shoes because it's Christmas. Suddenly, the world is so loving again. 

This Christmas is full of mixed feelings.. This Christmas I gave up on all the expectations and how it would turn out.. I gave up that it would be 'good and satisfying'.. But somehow I'm surprised by the smile I couldn't hide when we went up the stage for appreciating the production crew.