My God is beautiful..all the time-

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Give me that rearview mirror

"After all this time?"

"Always."

Second last day of 2009.

Quick updates for e week(s)!

met up with claire again on christmas eve's eve for brotzeit dinner. Went up the cruise for the book fair too.. rather cool! sight seeing from a cruise and a stroll after dinner was quite unusual.

Sat - BOXING DAY : met my jc lovelies!!! I miss them hell loads! been SO long since all the 10 of us are present. Had lunch at shoduku (again). It was our standard lunch venue. after that, we walked alot from cityhall to suntec and sat down at gloria jeans' for taste-like-medicine-coffee. Catch up with them and had laughable chats. Jer's funny rxns and us footsying her, jm complaining abt the foodcourt smell, mich arrived soon after.. oh and pz left early. I love us all!! and jer.. don stare at my legS!! URS ARE NICER!! hahaha.

Avatar was a greattttttt........... !!!! AWESOME. FAB. to the max. Bring me to pandora and let me play with the glowing forest.

I miss my brendonnnnnnn... epicentre call me soon.

I get the new year blues when it's end of year and things have to restart when the date hits january. I guess i didnt have this feeling last year due to the 8long mths of holiday i still had after year ended. I don't hv to get caught up with all the human race, to excel, to meet datelines, to not know wad im chasing after day by day. I don't hv to grow tired of work n more work. But i sincerely pray that 2010 will be a different year.. a year of breakthroughs.. a year of miracles i'm waiting to see by faith.. a year of friendships, old or new being forged closer.. a year of growing closer to God.. a year i'll not forget what it meant when i turn 60.

I rmb thanking friends for them ..writing dedications on my blog. Friends who are still on the list, friends who aren't anymore and friends who went up the list. I wonder if the list will change year on year.

My sister is making tiramisu now. i miss baking. i wan to bake banana bread !

TMR will be watchnight !

the Princess' thoughts ;

Friday, December 25, 2009

Put on your red shoes and dance the blues

There are feelings that fill you up

that dig their roots into your skin

and never let go

they swell

and blow you over

like winds and waves

"I have learnt now that while those who speak about ones miseries usually hurt, those who keep silence hurt more" - C.S Lewis

Christmas!!! Jolly Jolly Christmas..

I love Christmas.. good or bad how i spent my day.. I still love Christmas and how it makes me feel deep deep inside. It's warm.. it's fuzzy.. it feels like a hug. A season that I wna spend the entire evening, be it in a crowded place or just in my room, soaking on as much 'Love, giving, embrace' as I can. This is when you can sing christmas songs all day long and no one will stare weirdly at you saying "It's only February, dear". And of course, take pictures of beautiful festive lights like a tourist. Everybody seemed joyous on this day.. going around with smiles on their faces.. and nobody will scream at you for stepping on their shoes because it's Christmas. Suddenly, the world is so loving again.

This Christmas is full of mixed feelings.. This Christmas I gave up on all the expectations and how it would turn out.. I gave up that it would be 'good and satisfying'.. But somehow I'm surprised by the smile I couldn't hide when we went up the stage for appreciating the production crew.

I run away from you sometimes because I just want to know if you'll follow.

the Princess' thoughts ;

Friday, December 11, 2009

To have my voice, but him speaking.
My steps, but Christ leading.
My heart, but his love beating
in me, through me, with me.
What's it like to have Christ on the inside?

To tap his strength when mine expires
or feel the force of heaven's fires
raging, purging wrong desires.
Could Christ become my self entire?

So much him, so little me
That in my eyes it's him they see.
What's it like to a Mary be?
No longer I, but Christ in me.

Tues, Wed and today was love =)

Tues was fuzzy love with peezac and chewyan.. aww i miss them! and it's reallyyy super nice to meet them again, to talk like we knew each other since forever, and know for sure that we've nth to hide and there's always laughter. I REALLY LOVE THEM. although we spent most of the time sitting down n talking.. talking actually is quite fun on its own. Not to mention, Peezac sat on a table at cold rock. HAHA she just makes me day. I need some laughter about now. And chewyan with her lame jokes all.. =) yay glad we'll b meeting soon again!

Wed is claire bear love. Met up with the law girl and we went town. Didnt shop at all.. just updating on each other's lives. Movie 'Couples Retreat' was hilarious! quite funny here n there..not too bad at all. Acting like a tourist taking pictures of and with christmas trees was fun. we heart the one at ion. 'Supper' at tcc was love! talking about old times in crescent.. what wonderful memories we had. Recalling about funny incidents, teacher's names and what nots. Bad memories seemed good even now as you reflect on your teenage years. No wonder they say memories are always beautiful and sweet.

Today was sister love with SEH<3. went bugis on a mega shopping trip.. attempting to forget that it is results day. We had so much fun just having each other around.. talking about random things to serious things.. from retarded things to holy things. I just feel nicee to have her around.. and you noe you love me seh. hahah. our weird lingo just makes me laugh and i just love the way we are. I need a hug right about now.

I don noe what i'll ever do without these great people in my life.. Thank God I still have them.. Thank God for their wonderful lives.

Seeing God close that door is painful... You know, i really hate tears.

the Princess' thoughts ;

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

It's hard to describe how it hurts

to try again, and again, and still it fails

to look at everyone climbing and you falling

caught in between tears and disappointment

I tried.. i really did. That's why it hurts so bad now.

the Princess' thoughts ;

Friday, December 04, 2009

Lost

When wealth is lost, nothing is lost;

when health is lost, something is lost;

when character is lost, all is lost.

The past week was crazy. Crazy insane. Crazy fun. Crazy broken rules. Crazy life. Crazy me.

Been hanging out with wt and all alot. Monday and Wednesday - Shopping, food, (Crazy place) and etc. Thurs(ytd) was spent nua-ing at her house.. talked alot about things. thought alot about things..both want-think and don-want-think things. Holidays are insanely beautiful in many ways.

finally got to watch new moon! =) rather nice-ish..not bad i would say.

needs to meet up with more lovely people soon. Claire, JC peeps, church peeps, cute niece and all <3

i love my nails. i love plants vs zombies.

it's been awhile since i've been so confused..having so messed up thoughts. Actually, not 'been awhile'. It's always there but i refuse to pay much attention to it..like always i refuse to acknowledge it. I wish i cld do more but you just knew that this is all you've got and there's nothing more to it in your own will to give. And all this shit is crashing me.. losing myself is hurting too much.

the Princess' thoughts ;