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Monday, May 18, 2009

Just when you never thought..it happened

I guess throughout the years.. i became less emotional as a person. I learnt alot on the use of control and i know how to deal with nasty emotions quite well. As much as i can do that, i wouldn't deny that what happened these few days bothered me quite abit.

16May, i sat there..u talked.. i heard what u've been wanting to ask and tell for the past 6 long years. 6 long years and u handled all of it on ur own. I never, ever knew that i was capable of making sme1 feel this way. I never knew you took it so seriously.. i never knew i hurt u that badly. "Trust me.. you wouldn't rmb it as clearly as i did.." a cold laughter followed. My heart cringed. You said.."i really liked you alot.. i really did. in my heart, i really did think it cld last forever.. I was so sure. I made myself believed. You know..i stil kept the letters. i still rmbed why i liked you..I rmbed the way i looked at you.".... and my heart sank... guilt made me wanna cry right there n then.

Rae&Char's fab 16 in the night. fun, laughter, water bombs, kisses, pictures, cycling to airport, presents, cards, bbq, chicken wings. i had fun and forgot abt some things for awhile.

17 May, she wanted to cry.. she wanted to stop trying. she cld not concentrate.. but she don wan to see it break into pieces. surely it hurt. surely she was disappointed. that little girl was honestly disappointed.

Dvd at Rach's house..with our group of lovely friends..tlkin..laughing..it was awesome awesome FUN. conversation never stops when we gather tgt.

i love my BBPF!! we had awesome fun and awesome chit chat and awesome everything. more of such awesome-ness soon!!! =)

i will love my jie no matter what happens..

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