My God is beautiful..all the time-

Friday, March 27, 2009

It's in 2 weeks!!!(: !! A day after Good Friday and i'll be officially 19... look at how i've aged with grace. HAHA

Met up with Claire on wed for shopaholic movie!!! It was funny, cute n sweet at the same time. though Luke wasn't as cute as i imagined him to be but younger than wad i thought. Becky's role was played well!! bimbotic, shopping crazy, talking mannequins, Denny n George scarf, high fashion, quick witted girl with her crazy bestfriend Suze.

Thurs was with peixi to the icy cold marina sq. I got my studded belt!(= in black. brown one is nice too... mmm. n for once she didnt buy anything. hurhur.

ytd Radi8 was quite fun!(= we had station games. i cant believe we actually broke Derek's grp's record of 5secs. hahaha. lalalala. the longest link one ours were over 200+ steps! i had a good laugh indeed.

anxiously waiting for that call.. those calls...

today is saturday. dajie n i will b heading down to da ge's dance concert later in the evening!(: hoho.

ok ciaoz.

two times that question was asked.. and twice i answered "i don't know".. perhaps it's not really because i don't know.. but i don't understand what type of emotion it is called already..

the Princess' thoughts ;

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Breathless

i just read a gazillion forums on smu acct interviews, smu/nus/ntu cultures n whatnots, stress levels, acceptance n rejection letters, appeal, grade profiles... OMG................ honestly, im freaking out.

i will get done with the applications online by tmr(left smu), head out to post my papers n pay the fees at atms. and wait for the fateful call for interviews (smu acct) n go for it b4 it clashes with my europe trip and do kick-ass excellent in the interview n get accepted. i need prayers..alot alot of prayers.

smu ppl... pls tell me tt u all r not snobbish lik wad cy describes or i may just die.

claire is freakin out lik i do too.. but i guess with her grades, she will b able to go where she desire. i hope we both can end up in the same sch(slim chance bt im hoping).

-breathe in-

I'm beginning to wonder if what i think of you is the real you.. and what i once felt from you was the real you or was it all pretence and made up at the early stages.. if it is, you've managed to scare me a fair bit. true enough, as i begin to see every part of that lovely packaging peeling apart,it's revealing the different you. it's scary.. scary to think that packaging actually fooled me..still fooling me. mayb..after all.. i don even noe you..

i'm gettin quite tired of rejecting ppl and dates.. =/

the Princess' thoughts ;

Thursday, March 19, 2009

256 is a long time

I'm so busy these days(my sis will stare at me with a -.- expression whenever i say tt).. tt's y it's been awhile since i've blogged.

AHHH... every A level graduate is fussing over the applications right now.. omg they r killing me. well i completed the nus n ntu one. ntu i think i closed my eyes n completed them.. couldn't be bothered actually.. i dk if i shld pay the appl fees(since im nt interested in ntu). well i hope i can mail out my papers n pay em fees by next week. i need to complete the smu one!!!! ARGH.

Updates!!

been hanging out with px alot recently n tt spells alot of shopping too(omg). last tues, wed AND thurs was spent with her n sme crazyyyy retail therapy. Num is going for 1for1 promo! who can resist? queen's couture, c&k, topshop r hving salesss(last week tho). the economy is perhaps really tt bad. n far east has plenty of good deals. the nice vintage shop at the fourth floor has been our fav hangout. Lol.

wed jill came over at 1230.. we went to the warehs sale for awhile..bought some tops at 5bucks each(!!!) wad a steal. head to kovan to buy groceries n hv lunch. came back n we baked lava cake!! they were quite ok.. shall try more recipes nxt time. slacked on the couch n we both fell asleep.. woke up at 5 n watched baifenbai. n then she left at 6ish.

best part of the week was ytd! cuz.. i FINALLY MET UP WITH MY LOVEeeeeee!! *screams* it has been forever since we hang out. i really miss that S.. *HUGs*

met S at wisma for lunch at whisk cafe. i adore their aglio olio.. it's fab. then we head to shop ard alittle n i bought my cap while S freeload on my topshop 30%.. hehh=) it was a good buy tho. we didnt shop alot.. was basically catching up n all n i realise how much i miss that comfortable feeling whenever im with tt childhood buddy of mine. I truely had alot of fun despite tt short 4hours of meet up. Then we went to see some wallets..picard or goldlion? mmmmm. anyways.. it's been awhile since i've felt so happy n familiar. catch up again really soon!

then i met peixi at 5... shopped abit. we were insanely strange .. talking abt chinese words at sushi tei n laughin our heads off at her poor memory of writing chinese characters. trying heels at mondo n getting pissed off at lousy customer services. me laughing at her shrunken stomach n machine like motion. trying tons of clothes n her demanding me to choose btwn e grey or black. it was yet another familiarity.. i always thought abt e way we laugh so much tgt when we were still lil kiddos. awesome memory

Peixi: what!? ur family has 3 cars!?
Deb: errr ya!? i thought u knew? my dad's car, silver one n e xiao huang.
Peixi: what...what xiao huang??
Deb: HUH! u mean u still dk abt xiao huang's existence!?
Peixi: ehhhhH! YELLOW! (excites over her fav color).. wow cool.. then where's ur BMW?
Deb: ........
Deb: HELLO! it was scraped dk hw many eons ago.. *smacks her*

tt's my cool fren.

oh n hw cld i forget the best victory of last week.. LIVERPOOL TRASHED MANU!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. hw awesome was tt match at franklin's place. 4-1.. FOUR ! MWAHA. i think tt's e first time i jumped up from the couch so excitedly n shouting "GOALLL!!!!" for four times. hehehe. too bad red devils.

yay imma meet claire nxt week for our shopaholic movie date!! I CANT WAIT FOR THE SHOW. ok toodles

hands strumming those strings..

the Princess' thoughts ;

Monday, March 09, 2009

An Average But Better

Being perfect is an imperfection itself

So 6thmarch came n went just in a blink. The anxiety tt morning was suffocating.. even Island Creamery's ice cream doesn't tempt me into finishing my double scoop of nutella n ReverSo. It was cy, yini, mich, rach n me.. sitting there with our tummies in a knot n blabbering nonsense as the time ticks away..

1330pm we set off to sch.

1400pm we finished lunch n sat at our usual spot by the pond.

1430pm the principal starts to talk. phototaking with the geniuses in our sch. my mind was basically off everything tt's happening ard me.

1445-1500pm was pure agony. no doubt i was disappointed.. no doubt my tears clouded my vision n i simply couldn't b bothered by who's ard or not. all i knew is i didn't get what i wanted..when others did exceptionally well. all i knew is my heart dropped n it was painful. but no doubt.. i still felt that peace in me..

It was a peace.. so serene.. calming my raging sea. i knew i was upset but i cannot deny that i felt thankful that it was an all distinctions.

I stayed up late in bed on friday thinkin abt my "average" working out best. Contradictory? yes.. but absolutely possible n logical. I kept talking to Bigdaddy.. And He never stopped telling me.. never stopped comforting me.

Then, my mind went back to a prayer i once prayed. I needed a direction.. i wanted a specific guidance.. I needed a sign. So in fact, my prayers were answered.

i thought..... "Given 7As, so?? i will still end up doing business(i think) given my lack of interest in all other courses. But given 7As n the nature of who i am(indecisive n easily confused by choices), i can be almost 99% sure tt i will b so tempted to take up Law or Dentistry or.. well whatever that doesn't suit me but can b open to me."

Hmmmmm.. now that i don hv the superior decision making entitled.. my choices are rather narrowed down n hey! less thinking for me! and definitely lesser probability of making a wrong decision. And then.. i smiled n went to bed.

Saturday at SMU open house.. my worries went up alittle, accompanied by quite a substancial level of insecurity with all the 6As, 7As ard me. but then, the peace never went away. Had dinner with chewyan at Shokudo then dessert at Ochacha was fun.. talkin abt our feelings, the 'barrier', frustrations n what not.. n i shared my point of view..

I reckon that God knows who needs wad and who don't need wad. I might not get as many As as i intended..who doesn't desire all As ?? Of course i want.. but.. an "A" is really a limited edition.. There's only a certain number of ppl who can get an A.. Bell curve decides ur standing n not exactly e score itself. If i get an A, someone out there gets deprive of one. Someone else needs the A more than i do.. there might b someone else who just need tt one more A to realise the dream of becoming a doctor or get into Law or even be able to go uni. He knows tt one more A i wanted suits someone else better. . Not at the expanse of me of cuz since i can still get into business anyway. so.. why sulk over smth tt.. u won't need in e end???

So then on.. Debbie is a happy girl=). She knows her Bigdaddy will take care of her.. He is more than enough!! :) PRaise be to God! She really feels tt joy burning inside of her and no one else can provide tt joy except You. the joy tt last.. the joy tt cannot fade. hehehe.

UPDATES!!

ytd dinner was so nerve wrecking for someone else but a good laughin session for me. HAHA. well im happy for Barney the dino n her Dino man anyways. GOOD SEAFOOD!(: n awkward fellowship at times. HAHA. HEHEHEHEH. cool.

You who calm the raging sea.. that came crashing over me..

the Princess' thoughts ;

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Nervous is an Understatement

106days of waiting. . .

2 years of effort, determination, tears and joy. . .

when everything concentrates into a sheet of paper, when frames of your hardwork is translated into an international recognition . . .

To me, it all felt like i'll be handed a tin can of unknown and a can opener on the 6th of march.. what i can do is just to open it.

Finally.. here comes the day.. the day that all has to come face to face..

the hour when your heart will thump the hardest, the minute when your palms will freeze, the second when your eyes will stop blinking.

It still has to come..

the Princess' thoughts ;