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Friday, August 08, 2008

Ignorance is (bliss)

i realise i hvnt been blogging abt "daily life"ish stuff. 1 n half weeks to prelims is freaking me out. haha. oh wells. sch's been rather hectic esp on tuesdays. thurs n fridays r relatively slack except ytd when my lesson starts at 1.30PM and end at 7PM-.-

ok there's lik SO many things i cannot say here. ok happy national day!=)

it's been a mth. i wonder hw time flies past so quickly i don even notice somehw. or probably i couldn't care less to count e days actually. y shld i anyway.. it only makes it harder when u go day by day.

many things in life we cannot know about. that includes little things like conversations between, say ur good fren and another fren of hers, to bigger issues like hw other's judge you or wad really went thru their head at times. I think God didnt give us e power to read minds for a reason. Maybe ignorance is really bliss sometimes when u don't have that much courage, self righteousness or justification or even the simple right to know something. If u can surpass ur own barrier of fear to confront the truth, maybe u hv the strength to face it afterall. On the other hand, u can only leave it to ur own interpretation or simply indifference if u cannot even summon enough guts. People don wear neon signs on their heads which flashes out every thought to e world ard.. if yes.. tt's scary. good at times when u get all .."argh omg wad does he/she mean infact?" and bad when u secretly carry sme thought u wan them unexposed.

wondering wad's going on is one thing.. wanting to noe wad's happening is another. The former might nt lead to the latter if u think it will kill you by REALLY knowing. N e reason y ppl wish they knew certain things usually falls back down to the word "curiosity" or in layman terms "kpo". Or another possible explanation would b the hope to noe things aren't as bad as wad themselves perceived. Subconciously, we all want things to b "not as bad as we think" it is. We wish tt it really is "not too bleak looking", or "there's hope to it".

my mum was telling me one day(in e car on my way to sch) tt hw she suddenly wish she was back in her early 20ties again.. or even as a kid playing in the field. n she asked me if i have ever wish i was back then when i was like perhaps primary school. honestly, not very. haha. of cuz i love those carefree days when i played monkey bars with my frens n hopskotch, but.. to b back in those days my mum dictate wad i wear and get screamed at by my sister all e time.. ERrr no tks. ok i noe besides those superficial things, there's many more tt i love abt right now. and i wan to live in the present so tt i will not look back n go.."eh oh man hw i wish i was 18 again.. cuz i don rmb really living thru one". tt's v sad. don waste ur time away. nostalgia is ok..regret is not.

ok i also wna blog abt smth else but.. i'll leave tt tilll e nxt post. which is.. i do not noe. haha. NITEZ!

the Princess' thoughts ;