My God is beautiful..all the time-

Friday, July 18, 2008

Out of the norm

TGIF! =) came bck from youth nt too long ago. today's msg was short but heyy it speaks into my heart. i guess it was outta e norm.. never recorded..never accounted b4.. thrown off balance and i hv to get up nonetheless. learn to adapt to it. learn to accept it and grow with the changes.

sch was alrighty. hectic hectic. 4weeks to prelims! Omgg. i need to mug. i need to mug n b a mugger for e nxt few mths. its gonna look like i do not have a life man. but well.. i will hv one once its over=) plannings r alrd in progress=P. ok shuddap n get over ur exams first debz.

it's been 1week plus..to 2weeks alrdy...

i read this "I honestly think women have it hard. We're labelled as the weaker species, throughout time. Since like the beginning, its been the men who are the alphamale. Girls take more... emotional burden than guys. Ultimately, arent we the strongest!? Hate how tears are sterotyped as weakness. Tears arent a symbol of weakness. They speak of things that words will never be close to comprehend. There're 616,500 words in the Oxford dictionary. But so many times, not a single one can suffice." -jill

how true how true. i cannot wait to echo in agreement.

out with my lil girl tdy. had our mcfluffy(she actually did ordered in tt way). sitting at mos burger n narrating a tad bit of it.. and tears started flowing again. 1 week n i broke my own not-to-cry promise.

rach talked abt it tdy.. n instantenously my heart dropped. nt e first time it did. i think i heard the "thump" sound in my chest as it sank downwards. it felt numb again. i was struggling to find words to explain.. or perhaps to laugh it off lik it don't matter.. but all i did was jus looked at boon.. n we exchanged glances. i guess she cld read my mind. i still took up e courage once again to say it. n to verbalise it is like worse than facing it internally. but i kept those tears in.

i read this "When we're in love it always feels like "forever and ever babe" but it actually feels like that only while it lasts. our feelings ebb when we're in different places around different people doing different things. You know, like when i'm fighting a mission in taiwan with my closest buddies... you tend not to feel so fully absorbed into someone as you feel when you're on say a date with her. So as we go from season to season, feelings do fluctuate.

But i feel all over again that love is so substantial it doesnt have to be circumstantial. Though someone else or things make you feel warm and fuzzy in the day, you still go to sleep and wake up being so sure of who you love when the morning arrives. Because if we let days go by without doing so, its so easy to get swept away by the pace and novelty of it all. You understand that while highlights of the weeks are so attractive; they dont cause the girl of your life to fade. This engenders uncertainty and insecurity but thats when you realise how feelings are faded by time if unguarded, prodding us to add on to our trust-worthiness on our part".. -eric

Goddd.. i wish he cld think this way.. but i guess.. he only did get the first para n it nv did continued..

i saw his smile again.

i wonder if i've ever crossed ur mind thru this week. i wonder if our memories did. i wonder.. cuz it sure did to me. does curiosity kill the cat in this case? does it even matterrr....

the Princess' thoughts ;