My God is beautiful..all the time-

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Thy will be done

i suddenly feel so sad.. i really dk y but im just..sad.

i read px's blog. her talkin abt her plan migrating to US..studyin there.. she hoping to treasure the time she have here now n all. that 11years fren of mine have a high chance of moving her entire family to US. talk about feeling sad man.

i rmbed the times we trained tgt during gym.. back flips, cut wheels, front walk, back walk, tramp, floor, vault, beam, handstands for awful 10 mins, scoldings from feng lao shi, running ard n jumping into pool of sponge.. nostalgia. childhood frens since pri 1. i rmbed the first impression i had of her was the girl with two cute pony tails. we hang out, we have fun.. all the way till sec sch days..till we're now 18. we would go out almost every week during sec 3 n till her classmates will go "wad?? debbie againn.. " haha.

we have so many good old days. and now perhaps, in the near future.. memories as it stays to be. i dk.. i just try not to think about it b4 i get too sad over the approaching reality. when she goes, i tink a part of me would too. ahh ok stop it debz. don b so gay.

so i went tanning with her on tues=) tanning on a cloudy and drizzling day at siloso beach. how fun. tough luck n fat chance. ArrGhh. we were both pissed at our unfortunate attempt. well at least we had fun takin 40pictures in the toilet n probably freakin tourist or locals out by standing on the basin. haha. crazy stuffs.

wed aka tdy: met boon at amkstation n we went st nicks. haha ya .."huh!? st nicks?" haha. well it was fun la. i ate the legendary orange bowl n revised my microecons topics. not super productive but i did sme reading at least for e 1st time in the hols. good start i shld say. had fun chattin n updating on juicy news. LOl. poking each other when we were bout to fall aslp, openly watchin the gymnasts train(gosh i miss gym)..etc.

went to amk hub to shop alil..bought sme cute stuffs n a bag. met miah n got my first 12 episodes of gossip girl! WOO. cheers. i really hope his laptop isnt fried after 8 days of no rest. haha. guilty!

one afternoon i was bored n this thought came into my mind to pick up a book from my sister's mini Max.L's collection shelf. i rmb her saying that "God came near" is really nice so i took tt out. she really aint wrong about tt comment. again, i love his writing style n goshh..almost every paragraph can literally impact me big time. God again surprised me out of my socks. no words can express nor describe how in awe i am of my BigDaddy up in Heaven; the One so close n personal to my heart=)

"You mean to tell me God became a baby.."

-disbelief-

"and that he was born in a sheep stable..?"

-puzzlement-

"and then, after becoming a baby, he was raised in a blue collar home? He never wrote any books or held any offices, yet he called himself the Son of God?"

-sounding he honestly didnt noe if the story was a mountain legend or the gospel truth-

"He never travelled outside of his own country, never studied in a university, never lived in a palace, and yet asked to be regarded the creator of the universe?"

- bewildered -

" and this crucifixion story.. he was betrayed by his own pple? no followers came to his defence? and he was executed like a common junkyard thief? and after the kiling he was buried in a borrowed grave?.. after 3 days in the grave he was resurrected and made appearances to over 500 pple?.. and all this was to prove that God still loves his pple n provides a way for us to return to him thru Jesus' blood?.."

- here comes the question which is commonly asked-

" doesn't that all sound rather... absurd?"

yes.. absurd. i was asked b4 n i answered.. well yes it does sound absurd, doesnt it? I didnt like my own answer. It just didnt feel good allowing what God did to be described as absurd. But it dawned on me: What God did makes sense. Jesus would be our sacrifice because a sacrifice is needed to justify man's presence b4 God and all. but WhY God did all of tt sounds totally absurd. That type of love isnt logical. Why didnt He give up? Why didnt he let the glode spin off its axis? Why did He wait upon those who have chosen to bow b4 the pimps of power and fame? Why did He still love those who spat in His face? Why did He died for them?

It is that very irrationality that gives the gospel its greatest defense. For only God could love like that. Bloodstained royalty. A lion with his wounded paws. A God with tears. A creator with a heart. God became earth's mockery to save His children. How absurd to think that such nobility would go to such poverty to share such a treasure with thankless souls.

But he did.

In fact, the only thing more absurd than the gift is those stubborn unwillingness to receive it.

i have such an urge to scream out loud telling the whole world how great He is, to let every1 come to noe of this awesome Saviour i call.. BigDaddy=)

tata=)

the Princess' thoughts ;