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Friday, June 20, 2008

Spiritually undefeated

It's usually those ppl who are closest to u that hurt u the most

i've nv really believed in tt. but it actually makes alot of sense. they dont hurt u the way ur enemies do. nt in that sense. but perhaps more in a way of telling the truth. the truth is the sharpest weapon on earth. and it stabs u right into that specific spot tt hurts the most. hit on tt spot n the pain spreads thru ur body like how blood brings oxygen ard. and the truth ur best friends, or ur closest kin has.. is like a knife coated with salt. while those who hate u has a blunt knife. obivously, the knife coated with salt hurts BADDDDdd. its sliced ur heart apart and the salt stings right into ur bone. the pain lasts.. it drags.. it suffers. the blunt knife too hurts but it leaves that open wound somewhere n vulnerable to future pains. altho the former sounds alil more merciless but it cuts deep yet heals fast. the difference here is the salt. the salt comes from the fact tt they care n love u.

It's a choice.. Choicee.. choice.. i've never really like this word in the dictionary. smthimes i adore it because it means freedom. but now.. i need to come face to face with my big old problem of DECIDING!

im not an iron man. i feel hurt.. it hurtss.. i feel sad. its natural. our brain programs emotions upon situations and i don wna say im alright n ok n not affected when i really am. and when i confront or at least show my feelings, pple start teling me to grow up. cant i allow myself tt few seconds or minutes of sorrow? adults feel sad but they get over it. so pls don deny me of the right to feel sad n i will get over it too. honestly, whose heart hasn't sank before? all the sinking of hearts doesnt matter, wad's most impt is u let it sink no more and bring it back up to where it shld be.

this blog is perhaps only 5% of who i really am.

"that's the world sis..in reality.. it works this way "

the world and its ugly side sucks.

most of all.. i just want to be myself. to express my thoughts. to jote down things im happy about.. things tt's worthy to keep a record n perhaps in retrospect, bring some smiles n laughter on my face. or reflections.

i rmb the Christmas production with my sister 2 yrs back. it was fun. i really enjoyed the stage.. enjoy helping her. enjoy the arts. I rmb the christmas production for ekids last year.. the choreography.. i cracked my brains to come up with one n altho i've nv done it b4, it was awesome experience. i love it. my mum always believed im a science-y person. n i grow into believing i am one. but i noe smewhere inside me there's this art person. maybe i shld start feeding it n let it grow=)

*'s out with his bros=) n i'm goin to hv my own fun too.

kies byes!

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