God blesses us in spite of our lives. God didnt bless us because of our lives.
hello folks=)
youth camp is in two days! OMG. how fast. it seemed lik ytd when i was highlighting the dates in my school diary and getting all excited about it.
oh guess wad and i havent even start packing for it. that aside.
Friday was Radi8 as usual. but the altar call wasn't the usual thing at all. It witnessed to (some1) and i witnessed all that happened. i witnessed how great, specific and personal Jesus can actually be. i literally stood there, dumb-founded, in awe of His great works. When ps wilson interrupted, the last thing i expect to hear was that exact same phrase i heard from someone days ago. man.. i really was shocked from head to toe. shocked in a good sense. shocked in a way i feel so happy for tt some1 out there. I knew.. or i should say we knew at once that's God intended interruption of the worship. No doubt the Lord heard our prayers, no doubt the Lord knows (someone's) cries.. the struggle.. the pain.. the hurt.. that Jesus couldn't bare looking at the helplessness. I rmbed praying hard the previous night, and the night when (someone) told me all. "Take it away.. take it all away.. take that pain away.. take the struggle and burden away.." i murmured to myself, i prayed persistently, almost as if on (some1)'s behalf when there was the altar call. cuz.. it just felt so real and strong. so strong. Lord i thank you so much. God surprised me again with His goodness.. this time in the third party position. even though it wasn't that much of a "myself" thing, i still manage to catch that glimpse of my Father's grace and mighty love.
Days ago, lying in bed i was thinking about the situation faced by some. the situation that most didn't realise or perhaps ignored a little. and God pointed me back to this particular chapter i read in "God came near". Warnings.
We've seen that blinking red light on the car panel. "It's okay.. i'll fix that tmr". "It's okay.. i'll be friendly tmr". "It's okay.. i'll just stay right here and talk to that lonely guy at the side tmr." "It's okay.. he wouldnt be that sensitive. i'll invite him over tmr" But tmr never became today. The light continued to blink, waving red flags before blind eyes. Something seemed wrong, but i had too many things to do. Is that ur mentality? It's time to change b4 it's really too late.
Red lights in life that signals us of impending danger. alarms blare when friendships starts to sour. sirens screams when a faith weakens. flares go up to alert us of the disintegrating unity in a group. No matter the form, warnings exist for the same purpose: to alert us - to wake up. to get real.
Unfortunately, warning lights aren't always given the right attention. we've all learnt, consciously, subconsciously, to shield our eyes and cover our ears. It's scary how we try to keep them out sometimes, try to run away and hide from it, like an ostrich with its head in the ground n thinking the surroundings doesn't exist. Christians who have fallen away felt that fire waning long b4 it went out. Stagnant church attendance. Romance becoming routine. Explosions of anger may appear to be the fruit of a moment's waywardness, but in reality.. they are actually a history of ignoring red lights.
God stamped her name across my mind. She mentioned it longgg b4. It was the reason why she left in the end. She didnt only talked about it once but many. She didnt just brush it past as a topic during lunch. She tried to knock it into my head but somehow then i wasn't even close to being convinced. blinded. looking back, now it all made sense. I possibly have covered up that blinking red light, assuming it didnt exist. but it did.
I missed the first warning. the 2nd came when 'S' mentioned it. STILL... i wasn't much persuaded. i didnt slow down a little n tink. so it went behind the curtains again. 3rd time was myself.. i saw the light. i let it blink and hope it doesnt lead to smth catastrophic. in other words, ignored. 4th time(someone) was when i really see it eye to eye and the 1st, 2nd, 3rd red lights got all unveiled alongside with the 4th suddenly right b4 me. i actually realise how gracious God was. 4th chance. 4th warning. "it's the reason y we aren't growing.."-impactful, yet very true.
It would probably b alot better when more than just 3 recognise the red light, heed the warning and start fixing it b4 nth u do can stop it from blinking.
sat was nice=) lovely sweet=). morning. kettle chips. apple chips. 2 potato couches. gossip girl. fun. laughter. poking each other. im the winner:P. hugs. tv. computer. evening. maccas. walk under the street lights and starry sky. added memories into the bank=) good day after a long while.
nt to forget my sister just turned 25 on sat too=)!!
tdy is sunday. lunch at marina spageddies. crayfish n chicken combo. yums. trained home after with * n miah. two guys K.O in the train. haha was funny looking at the sleepy face, nodding the head off.
k tazZz.
i still miss those random tags back then. and i still would look forward to them. but tks for all the effort to be sweet..those random calls in the afternoon which i rarely even get last time besides night time. I feel so loved btw=) tks dear=)
