My God is beautiful..all the time-

Monday, May 12, 2008

it's easy to find some1 else better than the one u're with.. but it's harder to find sme1 u noe u can readily embrace the imperfections like u've done for the one u love now.

i'm hving exams in 2days. gp n econs is on weds. its 10.23pm nw. i've done my part muggin my lungs n heart out for e past 3 weeks. i've skipped my usual afternoon naps tt i find it almost impossible to fight off. goshhh.. lik everytime i get hme i get soo sleepy bt i jus CANNOT slp. mind over body..mind over body. of cuz at times i doze off for 10mins n wonder wad i've read is in my dream or from the notes infront of me. the tough life of an A level student. i need prayersss!

so it's kinda my "off" time after 10 so here i am=)

highlights of May:

i watched ironman! GOSH its sooo good. jill.. why isnt it nice??! its lik the best man. they could hv lengthen the final battle scene..it's kinda short. the effects were brilliant. cant wait for the sequel! =)

oh n 8th May was Claire's 18th=) happy bday girlie!! hugsxoxo. i gave her a sadistic n sweet card in the morning n i hope it woke her up=) muahaha. i read her blog n i BURST OUT LAUGHING when i read the part of her description of e card i gave her. heehee. a v v good way to sabo ur frens during their bdays. she had to turn the card continuously for 52 rounds b4 she finally finish readin it. HOHOHO. boonn.. urs is next=P

my arms r aching in a weird way=x. eeeks. gah.. hope it isnt a sign of falling sick. ok wadever logic is that.

*points to the picture*-goshh.. that's lik my dream. always been my dream. gahhhh. i wonder if it wld ever be fulfilled.

i cant wait for june hols!! lik nxt nxt week it is. wheeee. i shall nt plan for wad i wna do first lest i get too excited over it n lose the concentration for exams. but.. i do wna go shoppingg n watch gossip girl e whole day!!! tt's TOP priority. oh oh n tanning=) n go out with clairee to Morten's i-don-noe-wad-place. n shannn! n.. ok.. let's nt get carried away pls..

oh n we had a few lil talk abt things one week bck.. hmmm made me think abt stuffs. n ytd made me think abt things too. (my brain says: crapp.. don tinnk too much la pls..). what defines 'sweetness'? lik when sme1 gives u a hug.. u go:"aww..so sweet" or lik when shann gave me a rose..i went: "awww so sweet". when jill bought tt zara dress for me.. i went:"aww so sweeet." ehhh wait.. why is it lik all gifts? -.- i guess there's other forms of sweetness too. apart from physical/material types. lk when sme1 speaks up for u, talk to u in a gentler way, takes care of u, worries abt wad r u goin to have lunch l8r.. i guess for girls.. sweetness takes a whole lot different form. it comes with little subtle gestures tt often guys overlook. or those they simply don care bout. lik boon say: " i tink i make the best boyfriend in the world if i'm a guy". HAHA. indeed.. cuz afterall we're girlsss. we noe wad we need.. n wad makes us happy.

i tink i noe y sme girls get so upset n disappointed with guys nt appreciating the things they do for them. simply because they don understand. they don understand wad's so sweet abt folding hearts n writing letters, they don get it y pickin out time to drop a call even for 2mins is so impt, it puzzles them on y u don wna bring a jacket when u noe its cold n insist on wearin theirs, it seemed weird to them tt flowers work wonders even tho they wither the nxt day, they don get the logic when u make sushi for them for lunch instead of just buyin chicken rice. nuff said. it cant b taught exactly.. it would lose it's meaning altogether if it can even be comprehend with mere words. or mayb guys just hv selective hearing n understanding.

i rmbed talkin to my sis one day n smeting along this phrase.."i guess u've learnt to deal with it too." hit me. gah i wish i can boldly affirmed it bt a lil voice in me replied inwardly: " ehh.. really?" surely, i'm trying.. really. from angrily..sadly..indifferently.. to.. well.. i wished.. happily. it's hard la bt lik we've said, it takes time n we hv to work tgt towards it. nth's gna change with me bottling up the unhappiness, comparing it with others wont work too. i will learn to deal with it. n perhaps every1 has his or her way in contributing to a r/s..it doesnt hv to be made known sometimes, u just hv to trust tt the other party appreciates it n will, in some ways too, do the same as you=)

i rmb reading frm jill's blog. i tink it applies to when frens are lost too, when r/s slipped past ur hands, when u can no longer hv the right to hold sme1 tight, when u cannot behave in a way u used to take it as a norm, when u just don hv the liberty to say certain things, to ask or even be concerned abt tt person's life.. when sme1 becomes detached frm ur life forever.. at that moment when u've lost wad belonged to u or the privilege u've been enjoying..all the happy memories just come back to you at once, flooding ur mind with regrets and even unhappy times seem to be of utmost importance all of e sudden. especially the days whereby those chances are just a hand reach away, staring up at you but you just chose to walk away thinkin there will always be another tmr.

ok TATA=)

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