Actions speak louder than promises
GOSH... why m i up here blogging again!!? -attempts to bang head against the wall bt stopped in time- i need my brain cells. let's be rational.
errr.. okay. my sis calls me crazy(n kiasu) for re reading my bio notes even when i've alr finished studyin them. eh but u've got to at least read it 3-4 times b4 things get registered into the brain right? so im nt abnormal!! n lik i've complained to mummy n jie for the past two days tt i'm beginning to feel the sour sensation in my throat n nauseous feeling in my tummy frm bangin on that same pile of bio notes. I WAN TO PUKE ALR!!! cn i get a witness to tt??
i left photosynthesis n respiration to read l8r in the night for the..3rd time. tmr i will read it again b4 entering the exam hall. wah shiittt.. i sound damn nerd.
smething freaky has been happening since..saturday n im freakin out!!! i've been living in a world of bio notes tt when i sleep(last nite), i actually dreamt of myself studyin n memorising them. n even when i took a nap jus now(among the bio notes too), i woke up n faintly hear myself reciting about eukaryotic n prokaryotic genome-.-. this has happened several times. oh n also on sat after i took a power nap of 15mins. i vividly rmbed tt i was dreamin bout readin the process of Kreb cycle n link rxn of photosynthesis n i woke up hearing myself saying outloud smething lik"...in the mitochondria"!!!! AHHH SAVE ME!! IM CRAZY!!
ok crazy mugger syndrom side effects aside.. i've gt sme thoughts i wna pen down.
b4 tt.. i read this on eric's blog:
I conclude that support is really important for army boys. Its like you can be the best, but you feel empty because you dont have someone to be proud of you. I'll always remember how even though Chris went out of course he had his girlfriend with him the whole way. The pain of hearing the news and then the greater of pain of finishing bmt knowing it. And on graduation, standing beside me, his girlfriend turned and kissed him.
Even though it became the joke of our platoon, that night i saw that his eyes gleamed and his posture straightened... as if he was the company's best trainee.
awww.. so sweet hor..??? -melts- i guess to him(Chris).. all was worth it, the pain forgotten n even tho it was tough the whole way.. no matter hw much shit he suffered during this period, he noes in his heart tt sme1's out there with him. n .. tt's all it matters. enough said=)
i realised how different kind of feeling is conveyed to the reader when different kind of bloggers blog. they may all b touchin on the same issue, the same common topic of love or life, but somehow, we're just able to feel different after reading frm different blogs. I guess its in the way hw words r phrased, hw thoughts r processed n the way in which u wna interpret things. sme leave u with more complicated emotions n dragged u into the whirlpool of -ve thinking. others take u out of ur rigid framework and put u in a position where things smehow looked entirely simple. things are never complex.. its the human mind. given two individuals with opposite mentalities, one can rant abt how life's a bitch while another simply has a heart of gratitude n life's actually a blessing itself. the former kind of perception will only drag u down smeday..smehow..sme way. quit lamenting n crush that pity party of urs b4 its too late.
expectations; "u can never put all ur hopes in Man, for they will bound to fail u 1 day." how much i agree with this statement. Man.. with his/her imperfections can nv measure up to all of ur expectations. its nt abt not putting any in them or detachin urselves cruelly frm all the hopes u've had.. but rather, transfer the effort into God's hands. learn to rely on Him, learn to get acceptance from Him instead of Man.
i think we need to strike a balance in everything. ok maybe put a much heavier weight on God's side. we can put a certain amount of expectations in Man. perhaps tt's also a way to guide our actions. perhaps. but always be prepared to be failed.
F-E-A-R: false evidence appearing real. HAHA how true.
ok im hungruuiiii!! ciaoz
