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Wednesday, May 28, 2008

I wont cross the streets until you hold my hand

It takes 3 seconds to say i love you
It takes 3 hours to explain it
And a lifetime to prove it

GSS!! *all shopaholics scream yay*.. Ok so for e past few days.. errr. 2 days to b exact, i've been on massive shoppin trips. hoho.

tuesday was out wif kweeps to town. i miss her so n quoting from her: "even when we don meet up for ages but when we do, it feels lik we just met last wk." in other words, familiarity. n i tink it rocks.

we went paragon for sushi teh n tt weirdo ordered ramen salad ignoring the fact tt she hates veggies. haha. so she jus happily finished up e ramen n complained tt she felt cheated cuz it was darn little n left a heap of veggies for me to consume while she continued to hunt for strands of ramen in midst of lettuces. wad a cute fren. haha.

we gt stuck at paragon due to e downpour. decided to chiong over to taka. ralph lauren. polo jeans. guess. lasenza. f21. cotton on body, where we bought our pj formal shirts which cost merely 10bucks. i bought a polka dot ___ which is hell cute. tote bag frm schu at 39bucks=)

(i shall focus more on her weirdness cuz it seemed more interesting than our shopping). px insisted on ramen AGAIN for dinner after realising they serve cold ramen too(without e vegs). i protested so coffee club-ed for me. her ramen disappointed her with the weird sour-ish taste n i gave a stupid idea of rinsin e ramen with water. HAHA. unglammm moments! it didnt taste any nicer so she gave up. i learnt a new thing abt her-- "i love cold noodles! when i cook maggi mee, i will put them in the fridge n then eat it"...-.- haha weird cute fren.

updates. her overseas trip. possible migration = possible gdbye forever to my childhood fren of 11 years. sad little me. cursing tt she will fail e interview. gossips. talks on guys. walking to dhoby(yet again). train home.

Wed: met shu ai the ai at 1plus. town-ed. gt my black spag n cute off shoulder from f21. she gt e latter too bt diff colour. we made a pact nv to clash tops or i'll murder her. HAHA. bought heels too. wisma-ed. rain-ed. far east-ed. she bought a belt, pumps while i gt a 10buck pumps frm mondo. OH n my dark purple cotton on formal shirt at 15bucks. wad a steal.

dinner-ed at the jap pasta cafe at cine. not v nice. its so waraku-ish. talked over issues n funny things. heeren-ed. gosh i like tt clutch bag!! 45bucks. shld i?

smth v gay happened at heeren n it shall never be revealed to anybody else besides shu ai, me n *. haha. shhh.

she went to eat a sinful piece of choc cake at paragon while we continued to argue abt who spent more. LAME.

i total-ed up my spendings in 2 days n i tink it shall be a secret. LOL.

plans(tentatively) for nxt few days/nxt week:
1. collect my polka dot vans shoes tmr
2. disaru with e peeps on sat
3. tanning with kweeps at sentosa n shoppin at vivo after
4. hang out with jill. bugis streeet pls. =)
5. CLAIRE!!!!
6. SHANN!!!!
7. n of cuz..*=)

i missss *. while trainin to town ytd, makes me rmb bout hw i use to wait for him at serangoon station. i rmbed hw he waited for me at kovan, sittin right there. i rmbed our laughs, crazy jokes n lil lame fights. i rmbed walkin thru e streets with him. I MISS YOU! yes.. you. we just crossed our 1yr 11mths two days ago. px was askin me how r we? "still strong n lovely.." i smiled. px: "y don't u guys hv problems at all!?(in caps)". HAHA. one simple thing lik tt made me felt glad n jolt me into the realising how blessed i am=D. growing sweeter..stronger.

OK END! =D. im a happy girl.

the Princess' thoughts ;

Sunday, May 25, 2008

we get a message from a mess

and a testimony from a test

LALALALALA. exams? can eat one anot?

hahaha ok i better don get too happy over cts' official end. hoho. but with the exciting june hols n GSS infront of me, im afraid i might jus get too high. Hahaha.

Ok results-anxiety-n-wad-not aside, YAY i smell a tad bit of freedom..(for awhile) n shopping! first i need to get wad i wna do down in a list:

1. shopping at orchard road n comb the streets/shops where there's sales

2. tanning at sentosa or where ever there's sun

3. porking the whole afternoon in the couch with mountains of snacks n watchin gossip girl

4. catch Made of Honor and Chronicles of Narnia

5. buy wad i need asap

6. hang out wif shann

7. meet up wif claire n ning

8. spend a few saturdays with * in our lil world

9. see wad i wna get at V.S online

10. meet up wif my partners-in-crime in sch. hoho

11. meet up wif jill for...i dk.. ice cream at rooftop? LOL

oh yay sounds goood. the list is going on for sure.

BBQ on friday at Chongbang with the youths was kayish. was really warm n humid, got me all stinky n sticky. bt it was cool=) Psp game n the rubics cube kept me entertained for a moment.

Fusion rally was AWeeeESOOMMEeeeEE!! it's such a pity for those we missed it. well i really enjoyed myself soaking in God's presence. worship was good! * played! hee. im so proud of him=D. we cheered lik lunatics during clarissa's testimony. haha. n had fun bullyin my sister along wif sam n charleen's help but suffered a few concussions in the head during payback time. LOL.

Pastor Glenn Lim preached(nt our s.p). he was funny! he's real pro in electric guitar. ok well he made me realised how the Scripture can b interpreted in diff ways. i never thought the frogs in Egypt can b read as crisis in life to get rid off. i particualy liked bout e way he brings his own life experience into conveying the message from the Word or wad the Lord wans to teach us in the end. the song "Healer" was nice btw*adds to favourite songs list*. haha.

Sunday aka tdy was quite..okay. haha. nth much la. chicken rice. dessert. mango sago. bugis. walk ard. up n down. tummy aches. sweetness. ok tt's bout it=)

i hope miah can dl the series cuz i REALLY want them. ok cross fingers!

"characters are revealed through a crisis and not built through it." tt made me thought for a moment.

okay. my sister is fast aslp so i should not occupy her room too long.

Ciao for now.

the Princess' thoughts ;

Monday, May 19, 2008

Actions speak louder than promises

GOSH... why m i up here blogging again!!? -attempts to bang head against the wall bt stopped in time- i need my brain cells. let's be rational.

errr.. okay. my sis calls me crazy(n kiasu) for re reading my bio notes even when i've alr finished studyin them. eh but u've got to at least read it 3-4 times b4 things get registered into the brain right? so im nt abnormal!! n lik i've complained to mummy n jie for the past two days tt i'm beginning to feel the sour sensation in my throat n nauseous feeling in my tummy frm bangin on that same pile of bio notes. I WAN TO PUKE ALR!!! cn i get a witness to tt??

i left photosynthesis n respiration to read l8r in the night for the..3rd time. tmr i will read it again b4 entering the exam hall. wah shiittt.. i sound damn nerd.

smething freaky has been happening since..saturday n im freakin out!!! i've been living in a world of bio notes tt when i sleep(last nite), i actually dreamt of myself studyin n memorising them. n even when i took a nap jus now(among the bio notes too), i woke up n faintly hear myself reciting about eukaryotic n prokaryotic genome-.-. this has happened several times. oh n also on sat after i took a power nap of 15mins. i vividly rmbed tt i was dreamin bout readin the process of Kreb cycle n link rxn of photosynthesis n i woke up hearing myself saying outloud smething lik"...in the mitochondria"!!!! AHHH SAVE ME!! IM CRAZY!!

ok crazy mugger syndrom side effects aside.. i've gt sme thoughts i wna pen down.

b4 tt.. i read this on eric's blog:

I conclude that support is really important for army boys. Its like you can be the best, but you feel empty because you dont have someone to be proud of you. I'll always remember how even though Chris went out of course he had his girlfriend with him the whole way. The pain of hearing the news and then the greater of pain of finishing bmt knowing it. And on graduation, standing beside me, his girlfriend turned and kissed him.

Even though it became the joke of our platoon, that night i saw that his eyes gleamed and his posture straightened... as if he was the company's best trainee.

awww.. so sweet hor..??? -melts- i guess to him(Chris).. all was worth it, the pain forgotten n even tho it was tough the whole way.. no matter hw much shit he suffered during this period, he noes in his heart tt sme1's out there with him. n .. tt's all it matters. enough said=)

i realised how different kind of feeling is conveyed to the reader when different kind of bloggers blog. they may all b touchin on the same issue, the same common topic of love or life, but somehow, we're just able to feel different after reading frm different blogs. I guess its in the way hw words r phrased, hw thoughts r processed n the way in which u wna interpret things. sme leave u with more complicated emotions n dragged u into the whirlpool of -ve thinking. others take u out of ur rigid framework and put u in a position where things smehow looked entirely simple. things are never complex.. its the human mind. given two individuals with opposite mentalities, one can rant abt how life's a bitch while another simply has a heart of gratitude n life's actually a blessing itself. the former kind of perception will only drag u down smeday..smehow..sme way. quit lamenting n crush that pity party of urs b4 its too late.

expectations; "u can never put all ur hopes in Man, for they will bound to fail u 1 day." how much i agree with this statement. Man.. with his/her imperfections can nv measure up to all of ur expectations. its nt abt not putting any in them or detachin urselves cruelly frm all the hopes u've had.. but rather, transfer the effort into God's hands. learn to rely on Him, learn to get acceptance from Him instead of Man.

i think we need to strike a balance in everything. ok maybe put a much heavier weight on God's side. we can put a certain amount of expectations in Man. perhaps tt's also a way to guide our actions. perhaps. but always be prepared to be failed.

F-E-A-R: false evidence appearing real. HAHA how true.

ok im hungruuiiii!! ciaoz

the Princess' thoughts ;

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Bitter sweet symphony

whheeeeeee! no.. its not after exams cuz i still hv bio on tues and biospa on thurs. BUT! lalalala.. chem, gp, econs n maths are over! over! over!

ok lame. its only common test so i shlnt get to excited over it. we alr hv hol hw waiting for us to do. sian.

well.. gp wasnt too good. maths was a KILLER. econs n chem was quite ok(i hope). prayerfully, bio will end the CTs off nicely. yayyy.. i so cant wait.

reason why im up here is...unknown. but i need a brk frm bio notes. eeeks. i've been studyin since.. ok.. morning? and i tink once exams r about to end.. u tend to get restless/excited/cant sit still-ish. gahh. -concentrates-

ok this post is totally random.

Radi8-ed ytd. had a good laugh too. LOLL.

the world seemed to be in midst of mourning right now. Floods, cyclone in myanmar, earthquake in sze chuan.. families torn apart, loved ones lost.. time to thank God for keeping Singapore free from natural disasters and pray for those in need right nw.

i miss him.... tks for ur those lil smses in the morning jus to encourage me during my exam week=)

k ciaozz~ nth much to blog abt.

the Princess' thoughts ;

Monday, May 12, 2008

it's easy to find some1 else better than the one u're with.. but it's harder to find sme1 u noe u can readily embrace the imperfections like u've done for the one u love now.

i'm hving exams in 2days. gp n econs is on weds. its 10.23pm nw. i've done my part muggin my lungs n heart out for e past 3 weeks. i've skipped my usual afternoon naps tt i find it almost impossible to fight off. goshhh.. lik everytime i get hme i get soo sleepy bt i jus CANNOT slp. mind over body..mind over body. of cuz at times i doze off for 10mins n wonder wad i've read is in my dream or from the notes infront of me. the tough life of an A level student. i need prayersss!

so it's kinda my "off" time after 10 so here i am=)

highlights of May:

i watched ironman! GOSH its sooo good. jill.. why isnt it nice??! its lik the best man. they could hv lengthen the final battle scene..it's kinda short. the effects were brilliant. cant wait for the sequel! =)

oh n 8th May was Claire's 18th=) happy bday girlie!! hugsxoxo. i gave her a sadistic n sweet card in the morning n i hope it woke her up=) muahaha. i read her blog n i BURST OUT LAUGHING when i read the part of her description of e card i gave her. heehee. a v v good way to sabo ur frens during their bdays. she had to turn the card continuously for 52 rounds b4 she finally finish readin it. HOHOHO. boonn.. urs is next=P

my arms r aching in a weird way=x. eeeks. gah.. hope it isnt a sign of falling sick. ok wadever logic is that.

*points to the picture*-goshh.. that's lik my dream. always been my dream. gahhhh. i wonder if it wld ever be fulfilled.

i cant wait for june hols!! lik nxt nxt week it is. wheeee. i shall nt plan for wad i wna do first lest i get too excited over it n lose the concentration for exams. but.. i do wna go shoppingg n watch gossip girl e whole day!!! tt's TOP priority. oh oh n tanning=) n go out with clairee to Morten's i-don-noe-wad-place. n shannn! n.. ok.. let's nt get carried away pls..

oh n we had a few lil talk abt things one week bck.. hmmm made me think abt stuffs. n ytd made me think abt things too. (my brain says: crapp.. don tinnk too much la pls..). what defines 'sweetness'? lik when sme1 gives u a hug.. u go:"aww..so sweet" or lik when shann gave me a rose..i went: "awww so sweet". when jill bought tt zara dress for me.. i went:"aww so sweeet." ehhh wait.. why is it lik all gifts? -.- i guess there's other forms of sweetness too. apart from physical/material types. lk when sme1 speaks up for u, talk to u in a gentler way, takes care of u, worries abt wad r u goin to have lunch l8r.. i guess for girls.. sweetness takes a whole lot different form. it comes with little subtle gestures tt often guys overlook. or those they simply don care bout. lik boon say: " i tink i make the best boyfriend in the world if i'm a guy". HAHA. indeed.. cuz afterall we're girlsss. we noe wad we need.. n wad makes us happy.

i tink i noe y sme girls get so upset n disappointed with guys nt appreciating the things they do for them. simply because they don understand. they don understand wad's so sweet abt folding hearts n writing letters, they don get it y pickin out time to drop a call even for 2mins is so impt, it puzzles them on y u don wna bring a jacket when u noe its cold n insist on wearin theirs, it seemed weird to them tt flowers work wonders even tho they wither the nxt day, they don get the logic when u make sushi for them for lunch instead of just buyin chicken rice. nuff said. it cant b taught exactly.. it would lose it's meaning altogether if it can even be comprehend with mere words. or mayb guys just hv selective hearing n understanding.

i rmbed talkin to my sis one day n smeting along this phrase.."i guess u've learnt to deal with it too." hit me. gah i wish i can boldly affirmed it bt a lil voice in me replied inwardly: " ehh.. really?" surely, i'm trying.. really. from angrily..sadly..indifferently.. to.. well.. i wished.. happily. it's hard la bt lik we've said, it takes time n we hv to work tgt towards it. nth's gna change with me bottling up the unhappiness, comparing it with others wont work too. i will learn to deal with it. n perhaps every1 has his or her way in contributing to a r/s..it doesnt hv to be made known sometimes, u just hv to trust tt the other party appreciates it n will, in some ways too, do the same as you=)

i rmb reading frm jill's blog. i tink it applies to when frens are lost too, when r/s slipped past ur hands, when u can no longer hv the right to hold sme1 tight, when u cannot behave in a way u used to take it as a norm, when u just don hv the liberty to say certain things, to ask or even be concerned abt tt person's life.. when sme1 becomes detached frm ur life forever.. at that moment when u've lost wad belonged to u or the privilege u've been enjoying..all the happy memories just come back to you at once, flooding ur mind with regrets and even unhappy times seem to be of utmost importance all of e sudden. especially the days whereby those chances are just a hand reach away, staring up at you but you just chose to walk away thinkin there will always be another tmr.

ok TATA=)

the Princess' thoughts ;