havent been blogging much. havent been blog hopping much. just surfed ard blogs n i realised ppl really hv alot of time to update their blogs. haha. ok mayb im jus lazy.. or perhaps too caught up with the so-called mundane studying routine every student is tryin to rebel and run away from. CTs r realy jus ard e corner.. n i've again regretted nt startin early for revision. almost every blog i went to, i've noticed the "gosh.. i jus feel don wna care a shit abt exams" thingy. how i wish i can proclaim that courageously too. but.. somehow.. all these may nt b part of conformity bt obedience to ur duty as a student for now in that particular phase of life God has put u into.. well.. privileged phase. we tend to tk things for granted easily.. when u lose it.. u treasure it.. take for example how ppl r snatching up rice frm supermarkets due to inflation.. ok stupid analogy. 

Special thanks to BigDaddy to giving me such a pleasant surprise for pw results on my bday. and resolving things miraculously, providing e reassurance i needed n showin me tt im loved=) He did it againn. im learning ...learning.. still learning. 

ok. ponning lessons is fun n addictive. HOHO. not a good thing to learn. today is the 26th.. * is hving guard duty.. SIANNn. its ok.. its ok.. 

Radi8 ytd took a totally diff form of worship session. it was a ... unique experience n i wouldnt say im comfortable with it on the first attempt but well..smth different to try out i guess. all in all we're still worshipping the same God tho=). n.. i did e stupid forfeit set by the stupid me cuz i stupidly lost in a game of Jenga. LOL. nahh.. it was fun=D i guess i can call that my first practice for auditions perhaps. LOL

i miss my frens.. thought cld meet up with ah ben claire n ah ning but ning nong wasnt free. i miss px too smehw. n shann my 2nd 'bf/gf'. been ages since i've met up with them. 

i was talkin to my mum one day while hving lunch at sakae sushi. it was just a normal lunch but the conversation that day took a different direction. i've decided to press on n asked abt our roots n fellow relatives or distant relations in China. n smehw it led me thinkin abt frens, pple.. who were once in our lives n then went on separate ways. so separated that perhaps we don even noe whether they r still on earth(errrps). n sme ppl may feel.. well.. things fade relations fade so be it, that's life. i thought.. its actually kinda sad n pathetic. 

smetimes i sit down alone n start wondering wad happened to all my kindergarden best friends, primary classmates n secondary sch pals. or even the neighbour nxt door whom i've waved to when i was a little kid. or my cca seniors who did cip with me 4 years back. n smetimes wonder how's life over at his side. face it.. in one way or another, we will come to a pt n wonder wad if i've continued to stay in contact with sme1, texted her or drop a phonecall that night to ask abt how's things getting along.. mayb..mayb we wld hv added a few more ppl into our extended network called friends. mayb we wld hv been the answer to their miracle or blessings. but all these regrets come with a reason..in the end we just didnt. we didnt make that extra effort to ask, to be concerned, to stay connected to pple we once cared abt. regrets such as i shld hv talked to her/him tt day. and those pple.. perhaps i might hv brushed past their shoulders while shopping in orchard last mth.. took a brief glance at bt didnt recognise she was the girl who sat nxt to me in pri2.. or that familiar face among the group of ppl across the traffic light. smeway..smewhere.. they are there.. n u noe it. they get along with life n perhaps smeday.. when alone, they too look back into their memory bank and recollected a bunch of pple they wondered about. 

tt was so random. a randomly random thought in my mind. haha. 

i hv to get up super early tmr.. mayb earlier than the sunrise. ahhaha. i shall log off nw. TOODLES.