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Monday, March 03, 2008

iwantahappilyeverafter

yoozzz pple. i'm currently in CS22 computer lab in school having my so called Gp lesson. haha. the class is discussing abt cloning issues.. THE class minus me. :P LOL

was bloghoppin juz now. claire FINALLY decided to recreate her little bloggie. yay i miss reading her blog. she uses very amusing english phrasings. waha. well.. actually i faced the same feeling as her, felt that my previous posts were of low imaturity. BUT.. i chose to let them stay..(altho it's funny to re-read them) because i can still laugh at myself n convinced the present me that i've grown from a 'childish' girl=)

i love readin jill's blog.. ok altho it gets me emo n over-thinkin smetimes. bt wad she mentioned were pretty true n appilcable to life. * doesnt lik me to think too much cuz he feels tt it gets me all down n emo n -ve thinking. hmmm. thank God i still tink =) haha.

friday was dental then youth. music was good.. really felt the BigDaddy's presence=) refreshing! den we talked abt friends in e discussion.. how do u define friends n etc. friends.. don wna talk abt friends right now.

i tink i really hv to resort to singing a bday song to myself n light that little candle on the little cupcake for my 18th. SIGGH. ok la mayb not tt sad.. i'll DEFINITELY...
1. eat out wif jill
2. hv a fun day of catchin up wif shann
3. hang out wif claire/ning/rach and we cld plan smth nice.
4. possible quality time wif * (if he has e time)
5. eat with my mum n get my regular ang bao $$
6. chill out wif my buddies in class for a dinner or smth.

ok.. i need to decide. oh well.. leave it aside for now.

is it more painful to watch things u once had.. to watch r/s u once nv to doubt to slip pass ur hands day by day n yet u cant do a thing abt it/noe not wad to do? or is it to suddenly lose it one day? i guess e former hurts more. well.. chinese always say chang tong bu ru duan tong rite?

things are awkward now. soiled. spoiled. hot n cold treatment i realised. wad mummy said one saturday on our way bck hme really HIT me right in e chest tt i tink it's bleeding till now. i've only told two person so far wad she said. to tink tt my mum dont understand things at times or interpret things differently, she somehow observed it..from where i dont noe.. bt i tink she felt it too. i so wanted to agree with the statement of "she has her life n you hv yrs".. bt i jus don feel tt we shld compare ourselves as to mere separate individuals. it's no one's fault.. n i guessed no one will ever noe wad i ever needed. the slight consideration.. the tint of sensitivity cld possible make things different from wad it is right nw.

sat: finally met up wif *! we went shopping ard orchard area. OH b4 tt i had e kidsread thing.. o.0 handy crafting n book reading. hohoho. met him at ard 2ish. mmm nth much. bt it was good afterall=) im smehw 'immuned' to e fact tt we may nt get much time tgt n i don get too sad over it now. YAY nxt week is he's p.o.p! ok. altho i m told tt there's still another 2mths of training for normal unit but.. sighh.. it did felt very sian at 1st n lik -.-.... still need to wait kinda feeling. but oh well.. lik wad he said.."you're stuck wif me =P no choice. " HEHhh:P

ok bck to gp lesson! ending in half an hrs time. wheee. CIAO

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