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Friday, January 25, 2008

Bleeding love

k.. long time no updates!! been busy with sch stuffs.

mon: had pe. BAD DAY. had extremely super bad horrific cramps. i tink i was squriming in pain. tks to all who played a part in 'saving' my life. esp yini! haha. i'm super grateful for her strength. *claps claps*. went hme after tt to rest.

k e rest of e week was pretty much studying. nth much.

well latest news is.. * is away for field camp and it starts today. siannns. ZERO contact for one week cuz he cant bring his phone there so which means no call/sms for an entire week. well.. i survived when he went for missions. so hopefully by faith i can tis time. wadever it is.. i hv to pull thru. i hope i can. well one day down at least. pouts. really hope he's doin ok over there. so goin to miss him soooooo much.

oh n supposedly can write letters n i've passed him one b4 he went. the ppl will pass it to him on sme day during e camp. its lik to simulate war times-.-||.. diaoz. haha.

its easier to get pass the time in sch cuz u're busy n there's frens ard. the tough part is when everything settles down to pure silence n u're left with four walls of the room to face.. tt's when u've got nth else but God to rely on. and i guess only God can hlp u to pull thru the messy emotions.

everyday i wait for an sms frm him once awhile when he's free to sms me. seeing it makes me smile n feel relieve, reassured, comforted n loved. every night i get restless whenever its btwn 9.30 to 10.30 cuz he's gna call anytime soon. being able to hear him is juz enough to warm it up inside of me. i've developed a habit of checkin on my phone periodically even tho its only perhaps 10% chance he's able to sms me during e day or reply me. i always am afraid i will miss his calls so i put my phone no further than 20cm frm me in e night. altho he's away for camp.. i STILL check on my phone nw n then.. well i guessed its alrdy a habit.

youth tdy was alrighty. last grp discussion!!! i dn wna change grpp......*sulks* sian. all girls grp rocks. my sis as a grp leader rocks. oh n shann passed me e necklace. so nice! heees. n saw jill lik finally.. haha. she looks OLD... hello young 15 yr old pls dress lik one. hahaha no la jkjk. still love my lil niece xD

gt quite alot of work.. plenty of econs essay. got a test on tues. guessed im goin to lik mug tmr all day(to keep my mind off gettin emo).

well i tink its really heartwarming to noe tt we share e same sentiments of missing each other TT much. mehh heh=) . altho its tough, its hard.. i guessed its still a blessing.. at least i've gt sme1 i'm waiting for.. sme1 i noe who's worth all tt waiting frm me. every weekend nw seems more meaningful n worth hoping for too=) d.. i really miss u. i hv to say i do envy those who can spend all day long or week long with their bfs.. reading/hearing abt hw they spend a nice afternoon tgt, really made me miss him so much more. tons more. to those pple: treasure it pls.. ppl lik me don get these kind of privilege lik u all do. i can confidently say tt after these 3mths.. i really cherish e time we hv tgt alot more. every sec, every min counts.

its lik 1.40am nw. dies. so late. why m i not sleeping. cuz i hvnt finished blogging. ok tt's a dumb excuse. haha. im really tired tho.

ok i tink i shall go reply my junior. haha. toodles~

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