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Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Overwhelming Euphoria

AHHHH~~!!!!!! he's back!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!

HE'S BACK FROM HIS FIELD CAMP WHCH LASTED A WEEK and i thought he's cmin bck tmr night n was expecting a call TMR NIGHT BUT!!!! he surprised me with a call 10mins ago and i was totally shocked to bits!!!!!

u dk hw happy it is to hear his voice. to hear it after missing it for many nights n its jus awesommmmeeeee. nth beats it!!!

*me sitting in front of sis's mac n surfing net*

mummy: aeii!! debbie ur call!

*wonders who's tt to call at this time and feels puzzled*

*takes the phone frm mum and still confused.. rather reluctant cuz it interrupted me out of e blue n i hv no idea who was it*

me: helloo?

him: *a familiar voice was heard* hi!

me: EH!!!??????!!! *shocks n stunned for words*

him: A? B la..

me: eh!!!!!*got excited n thoughts ran thru my head tt i might b dreaming cuz this voice sounds toooo familiar*

him: *laughs*

me: AHHHH!!! *exclaims in disbelief*

him: *laughs again*

me: i.. i thought.. u.. u not.. tmr then come.. ahhhh!!!! *failed in sentence structuring suddenly*

him: *understands wad im tryin to say* ya i thought so too.. but im bck!

me: *continues to scream n hops ard* AHHH!!! u're back!!!!!!!! FINALLYYY!!! OMG i MISS YOU!!!!

ok.. tt was practically my rxn.. hilarious. hahaha. totally didnt expect his call cuz firstly, its past his bedtime, 2ndly.. didnt tink it will be tonight=) . tks dear for e call!!! really meant ALOT tt u called me!! hehehehe.

cldnt STOP smiling thru-out e convo. and even 15min after i've put down e phone. nw as im reliving the excitement, im still smiling ard lik a retard infrnt of e com. hehehe. ah i juz HAVE to type it dwn. this 'historical' moment needs to b recorded at once. hahaha.

i muz say i stood strong n really claimed e strength from God by faith. its really by faith. yay tks BigDaddy!!!! *beams* didnt get reallly emo .. didnt cry.. didnt lament in self pity. yay claps claps.

k. im off. BYEE!

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Friday, January 25, 2008

Bleeding love

k.. long time no updates!! been busy with sch stuffs.

mon: had pe. BAD DAY. had extremely super bad horrific cramps. i tink i was squriming in pain. tks to all who played a part in 'saving' my life. esp yini! haha. i'm super grateful for her strength. *claps claps*. went hme after tt to rest.

k e rest of e week was pretty much studying. nth much.

well latest news is.. * is away for field camp and it starts today. siannns. ZERO contact for one week cuz he cant bring his phone there so which means no call/sms for an entire week. well.. i survived when he went for missions. so hopefully by faith i can tis time. wadever it is.. i hv to pull thru. i hope i can. well one day down at least. pouts. really hope he's doin ok over there. so goin to miss him soooooo much.

oh n supposedly can write letters n i've passed him one b4 he went. the ppl will pass it to him on sme day during e camp. its lik to simulate war times-.-||.. diaoz. haha.

its easier to get pass the time in sch cuz u're busy n there's frens ard. the tough part is when everything settles down to pure silence n u're left with four walls of the room to face.. tt's when u've got nth else but God to rely on. and i guess only God can hlp u to pull thru the messy emotions.

everyday i wait for an sms frm him once awhile when he's free to sms me. seeing it makes me smile n feel relieve, reassured, comforted n loved. every night i get restless whenever its btwn 9.30 to 10.30 cuz he's gna call anytime soon. being able to hear him is juz enough to warm it up inside of me. i've developed a habit of checkin on my phone periodically even tho its only perhaps 10% chance he's able to sms me during e day or reply me. i always am afraid i will miss his calls so i put my phone no further than 20cm frm me in e night. altho he's away for camp.. i STILL check on my phone nw n then.. well i guessed its alrdy a habit.

youth tdy was alrighty. last grp discussion!!! i dn wna change grpp......*sulks* sian. all girls grp rocks. my sis as a grp leader rocks. oh n shann passed me e necklace. so nice! heees. n saw jill lik finally.. haha. she looks OLD... hello young 15 yr old pls dress lik one. hahaha no la jkjk. still love my lil niece xD

gt quite alot of work.. plenty of econs essay. got a test on tues. guessed im goin to lik mug tmr all day(to keep my mind off gettin emo).

well i tink its really heartwarming to noe tt we share e same sentiments of missing each other TT much. mehh heh=) . altho its tough, its hard.. i guessed its still a blessing.. at least i've gt sme1 i'm waiting for.. sme1 i noe who's worth all tt waiting frm me. every weekend nw seems more meaningful n worth hoping for too=) d.. i really miss u. i hv to say i do envy those who can spend all day long or week long with their bfs.. reading/hearing abt hw they spend a nice afternoon tgt, really made me miss him so much more. tons more. to those pple: treasure it pls.. ppl lik me don get these kind of privilege lik u all do. i can confidently say tt after these 3mths.. i really cherish e time we hv tgt alot more. every sec, every min counts.

its lik 1.40am nw. dies. so late. why m i not sleeping. cuz i hvnt finished blogging. ok tt's a dumb excuse. haha. im really tired tho.

ok i tink i shall go reply my junior. haha. toodles~

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Thursday, January 17, 2008

Just so you know

[edited heavily]

sigh.. decided to strike off alll that i've typed out in depths of emo-ness. well kudos to jill, tp .. i feel tons better now. jill gives gd advice/encouragement/+ve thinking despite being a 15-yr-old-to-be. they proved me wrong tt no one cares nor bothers.
lil superhero. nv to underestimate the 'power' of ur lil niece. hahaha.

feels lik a load off my shoulder n heart. yea.. she's right. its unfair to say all that. i need to stay strong. i need to pick myself up n not fall during this season. debzzz!! stay stronggg!!

juz wna say.. despite being overwhelmed by thoughts n 'hormones tt caused insecurities n moodswings', deep dwn inside i noe i wna trust this really. most imptly, i wna trust God. and you too.

eatin huge tubs of ice cream n chilling at esplanade rooftop sounds lik a great idea still=) slurps.

e last ting i wan is to weight the alrdy tired out u down with all the 'problems'.. whether they exsist or not. so.. i rather trust they dont=). hormones takes e blame for nw. haha.

kies.. im happy once again. tkssss. *hugs tt lil niece n tp*.

tata!

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Saturday, January 12, 2008

Teardrops on my guitar



He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

School is quite okayish. Able to catch up with the lectures and stuffs. Math sucks tho.. ahh vectors n probability is killing me. GAH. nvm. at least Mr song is rather kind. haha. kinda emo-ish e entire week. teared alil on sum nights.. felt down n emo-ish at night..when everything quietens dwn n there's only me n the four walls in my room. Jus telling BigDaddy, hw tough it suddenly felt when everything i thought wld b fine n did seem fine for these few weeks. its almost been a month nw. im gettin used to it alrdy.. well juz occasionally e girls moodswings sets in n make things seemed dull. im learning.. im coping.

did work today.. den went to meet * at 5 at mrt=) greaaat to see him(lik always). went to vivo n ate carls junior. wahh unglam sia.. e burger soooo uber huge. nvm la. haha. it was nice tho=) yummms. walked ard.. den wnt hme early cuz he has to:/ nvmmms. had e usual stroll hme.. e usual messy emotions when we're 5 metres away frm my hs. well.. tonight seemed alil more emotional..i dk why.. bt yea. i really didnt wna let go... i wna stay in tt warmth.. n e tears..for once.. was burning. sighhh. save me=(

smetimes i alwys thought * thinks n act lik a 22+ yr old man.. and smetimes he behaves lik a 10 yr old kid. haha. laughable. "Changes r good.. they hlp u grow. tt's life." -quotes frm *-. mehhh.. makes me feel lik a lil girl nw. well.. i still refuse to admit im 18 THIS yr.. BLEAH~. n whenever i say tt(soundin lik a stubborn girl), e big boy will smack e reality bck into my head n say "Grow up la!". hhahaha. ahh i miss him.

shu ai is pissed. ok SHHHHHHHS. random.

debs is bored.. OK stp it retard.

ah.. my sis juz talked to me abt sme stuff.. enlightening stuff.. wang wang stuffs.. tt i asked God to give me an ans to clear my doubts n pondered on friday. YAY doubts cleared!! Tks BigDaddy!! prayer answered!! n same sentiments=) whee. there's always a timing for things n God did it again.. He nv fails to surprise me n reach out to me in a REALLY special way tt i wld nv ever think of. PRAISE GOD! isn't my God creative? .. i dont need to tell Him wad to do.. cuz it wont b e best suited for me.. so He cmes out wif a entirely new approach to ans my prayer.. smeting i didnt expect at all.. n e best part is.. it makes me feel 100% satisfied n great!!=) . tks sis=) loveesss.

k.. I juz thought of one of my new year resolution: Child-like Faith. to hv a child-like faith. n surprisingly, Mr Lim mentioned smetime really close to it.. n i guess tt's wad God wna tell me too. "when u sleep, u sleep.. when u eat, u eat.. when u study, u study." n BigDaddy's voice adds: "when u pray, u pray. when u trust Me, u trust Me. when u love Me, u love Me." which means tt focus on one thing at a time n don mess ur focus up wif other things. lik when kids play, look at hw genuinely they enjoy in e game.. when u grow older, u began to judge others.. speculate their motives.. n a simple thing can be complicated up. yea.. i guess tt's wad goin bck to e basics means. when u trust God, juz trust Him will u!!! stop being suspicious tt He wont b able to fix things or meet ur needs. He CAN=)

ok im done=) tooodlessss.

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Thursday, January 03, 2008

Coolios banana

ok tdy's picture is alittle big. i dk hw to resize it. damn. hahaha.

the past few days were AWESOMEEE.. not including ytd which is e 1st day of sch-.-

i went shopping wif the kwee last week. bought quite a number of stuffs.
- rounded flats
- purple dress frm hula.co
- top frm F21
- top frm cotton on. (ahh! e plush d hv my size=( )

k tt's abt it. then went sme hs party on sat. it was freakin hot n humid due to the pathetic aircon. and stinks alot. ahhh. dancing part was quite okayish... ehh kwee was quite high. haha. idiotic guys ard.. lame despos. yucks.

* booked out on sunday afternoon! n he dropped by on mon late morning. WHHEEEE ~ chilled till 4ish den set off to town for his lil shopping. haha. took a cab there cuz we were too lazy. e uncle lik made a HUGE round lorr.. smacks. nvmmm.

went out n for dinner wif other peeps to sushi tei. den to watchnight service. prettycool=)

den headed bck to my place for the gathering!!!! we had cheese n choc fondue, cream cheese salad bar thingy, nachos wif salsa and other stuffs. hehe.

taboo, pictionary was fun!! =) haha loads of laughter. taunt till lik the nxt morning 6plus lor. ended at slpin at 8ish cuz shu ai stayed over n we were chatting n stuffs. hahaa.

Okkkk pretty much wrapped up e new yr with all these fun stuffs.

well i rmbed hearing during service, "2007 was a tough year.. n 2008 is goin to be really hectic" well.. same exact sentiments. 07 wasn't a smooth sailing one for me.. it was tough.. tought to fit myself into JC life.. tough to handle all the pressures of a new start of college life. with my own strength, i nv wld hv survived. it was God who pulled me thru all these while. well of cuz my frens in sch who made life less painful with all the fun n excitement. and dearr* who is always by my side. my family too=) my sis taught me loads this year.

Fri Radi8 i rmbed ps wil asked us to write dwn wad we're proud of.. well i thought i wld hv a hard time writing tt but i didnt! in fact, many breakthroughs in my life this year which i nv really pay attention to. Thank God for e reminder!

of cuz there comes e regrets too.. JC1 wasnt much of a good academical year for me.. disappointments n stuffs. 08 sure wont b a much relaxing year with the BIG As coming in my face real soon. hectic, packed, stressed.. i forsee those giants towering over me. but i aint gna fall on my knees!!! Lord.. i need Your strength, wisedom.. wadever tt i need to pull thru.. i need that hand of blessing frm You. In the beginning, there was God.. so I believe He will be there for me!! WHEEEEE~

ok.. juz a quick update on 1st day of sch. i puked twice on my way to sch.. wonder hw? i juz opened the door n started puking.. my mum stopped e car half way in e middle of a heavy traffic. wahh. scary huh? guesssed e late nights caused me to get sick.. or mayb i caught it frm *. haha. mc tdy.. feelin v weak still.. shiverin alittle due to lack of energy. tmr will b goin bck.. hopefuly will get better soon. tks guys who smsed me !! tk u pple. LOVESS. tks dear=)

k toodles.!

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