Saturday, December 15, 2007
Melancholy
....he's in army.. he juz went in this morning at 11ish. sigh... did i mention he's in army? and he's able to book out one day on 19dec. and perhaps n christmas too. sighhh. did i mention i miss him badly?? ...did i mention im kinda sad n emo again??
the past few days were awesome btw. went for P.E.M(power encounter meeting) in church on wed, thurs n fri.
all the services were gooodddddd. funny n enriching *tinks*.
thurs n wed afternoon was slacking in church n stuff. so nice =x. hehe. OH n he bought me a hand cream n bath lotion n shades. bt the shades is kinda big thought. but its ok=) tks dear!
one super funny thing happened on wed.
Eugene ATE the BODY butter !!!! cuz it smells and looks toooooo much lik edible butter(it has a strong smell of mango n really is tempting to taste it) and plus my v nice sis was saying "ya ya ya.. use for chao cai one". so he happily took some n put in his mouth! hahaha omggg.. we really ROFLMAO. hehehe.
mmm.. ytd was a sad day. well not v pleasant la. smth* happened n sorta stiffened up e atmosphere but was quickly cleared up soon after.
towards e night after service.. i was growing REALLY REALLY emo.. lik was almost goin to burst into tears any moment kinda of feeling. lik a cup of water filled to the brim n any more drops added in will cuz it to overflow. everyone was wishing him gd luck/tc etc. SIGH. we held hands tight for one last time...looked at that face of urs once more.. looked into tt pair of eyes once more.. we both saw the reddness in each others eyes.. we both saw the reluctance. we both saw us holding bck our tears. we both saw hw much we're goin to miss each other..
i really almost cldnt fight those tears bck. dom was lik "huh..don cry la..*takes out the tissue*.. v fast one..". u know..anyone juz dont say tt to me nxt time when im abt to cry.. cuz it makes wna cry even more! juz be quiet n leave me alone. dont even look at me. but i noe u guys mean good.. really. tks anyways=) its juz ME.
throughout that call last nite.. e tears juz cant seem to stop. when i close e door behind me, the tears started to fall. it's really v hard to seem as if u wont cry at all.
im tinkin of him the whole of tdy too. bt not quite emo-ly la. i guessed still tryin to tink +vely n draw strength frm BigDaddy.
i tink of u when i board e train.. hw we used to train tgt
i tink of u when i see my necklace
i tink of u when i eat b.k
i tink of u when i look at my phone.. i miss ur smses
i tink of u when e night falls.. rmbing those calls of urs
i tink of u when i had my dinner/lunch.. wondering if u've had urs
i tink of u when i see ur fav food/drinks
i tink of u when i see ur jacket
i tink of u when i see sme1 really tall
i tink of u when i hear the word "army"..( i hate the word "army" right nw)
i tink of u when i see smth facinating/cool.. hving e urge to share it with you
i tink of u when i feel sad..n i wld wan tt hug v much.
sigh ok tata
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