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Friday, January 26, 2007

Thought of e day: emo

i donnoe wad's up wif me these days..there's lik two sides of me...extreme ends of my personality. in sch im all happy, bubbly.. but when nobody except God is looking..i hide in my lil emo world think abt emo things tt sumtimes get so emo tt makes me cry. EMO go AWAYYY! its killing me.

k im nt tt emo as i am 3 hrs ago bt i'll still blog abt sum emo stuff so if ppl who cant take emo-ness/non-emo ppl, u can stp reading frm nw. hahaa.

OK thought of day no. 1 --> "sometimes one don treasure wad they hv ard them..takin ppl/things for granted like they will always be there. Only till u've lost it, den u'll began to regret." -quoted frm miss professor lin aka me.

i was juz tinkin of random things..tis thought came into my lil head. i kinda take sum tings/ppl for granted sumtimes..like my parents for eg. or perhaps even friends. thinkin tt aiyaa..they will ALWAYS b there one wad..no need to specially appreciate them..even if there's a need, can always do it another day. ya so time goes by n when its no longer there..when u slowly lose it or when it fades away..den u get worried n wans to salvage it..but its already too late. humans r juz like tt for no reason. emo-ing abt e times i took tings/ppl for granted. i shall NOT take anyting for granted frm nw on.. i can nv forget hw it sucks to lose sumone/someting 4EVA..

Ok thought no. 2 --> saw two VERY old couples walking on e streets...holdin hands n juz chatting happily...almost juz like hw a young couple would. damn damn sweet loor.. such unfailing n long lasting love.. so old already still so loving seh. suddenly got so envious of such pple.. not like im OLD or not attached or wad bt its juz so rare to see such sight. true love is hard to find..long lasting one is even harder to seek. a small voice whispered: hw i hope ours can last long too..

No. 3 --> i hate sch..e lessons part. wake up so early..so draggy e lessons..so dumb everyting..donnoe for wad purpose..i don even hv a goal to work towards which is damn sad once again..im juz blindly studyin for e sake of studying. wad's e pt man..

No. 4 --> its raining juz nw..rainy weather makes everyting seemed so emo-ish. so it affects me too.

No. 5 --> i HATE e word "fade".. i juz hate it.. i hate it when tings fade.. good tings arent suppose to fade wif time.. of cuz its good to hv bad memories to fade away..but don u tink tt gd tings tend to fade easier than bad experiences? which is another damn sad issue. when things arent emo-ish, almost eveyting seemed alright. but when i feel emo, nth seems to b NOT fading except God's love. which makes me wanna cry out loud sumtimes. mayb its juz me. n when im emo..i get unassured too by certain stuff..altho i noe i can trust. when im emo..i was juz wondering if there's still a tiny wound tt's left open in my heart after such a long long time..

ok so in total..1+2+3+4+5= emo me + sum tears - smiles + frowns + hides in one corner + negative thoughts. SIGGHHHHH.. end.

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