Saturday, October 21, 2006
Thought of e day: a break-takin time after my dinner
yesh..im goin to take 1o mins to blog. i HV to blog..i donnoe y bt i juz needa. neways, i needa rest for awhile after dinner like usual so might as well make use of e time.
yesterday went to youth. it sure was GOOD:))!! we had tis group tingy n it was so fun! hahaha.. at least i had fun laughing man. sarah is one joker. every sentence she says is so hilarious. tts a gifted talent! to make ppl laugh n happy. hahaha. after youth was fun too. i had fun juz by lookin at ppl playing catching ard the room, 'killing' each other. hahaahaha. i shld go youth more!
it felt so so gd to sit wif ya..talk to ya n see u even tho it was for awhile.
oh oh b4 youth went for dental n i wanted to close e ugly gap btwn my two front teeth so e stupid dentist went to put a super tight rubberband n its SOOO freakin painful ever since till nw. went to eat dinner after tt wif mum den to youth.
yesterday NIGHT*sleepin time* was horrible. i had practically NO slp at all. had migrane all night..turning n twisting ard in bed, strugglin wif e pain in my mouth n my head. argh..i was waking up so many times due to e pain. i finally cldnt stand it so woke up n pop two panadol in den went back to bed. inside me, i was singing worship songs n it sure felt comforting. soon i fell aslp. BUT!!!! it was 4 hrs later b4 i woke up for tuition at 11-.- i was so tired man. head was throbbing all along during tuition n throughout my afternoon mugging session. well..altho its double diffcult to mug wif a splitting headache, i still managed to complete 2 bio chaps, 3 chem chaps, one e maths paper n of cuz e 2 hr tuition. pop two more panadols at 5pm to ease e pain again. e whole day i've been feeling tt any moment im goin to faint..literally. my legs were so jelly-ish n head so heavy.
something was wrong wif me right after tuition which is ard 1 plus to 2. perhaps its due to the overworked-and-already-throbbing-brain, i was feeling damn awful. started to miss * even more all of a sudden like alot alot worser than usual. e thought was so unbearable and along wif e pain tts torturing me, i started crying. Once e tears started to flow, i began to miss * so intensely tt it juz caused me to cry n cry...my head hurting more n more. i almost wanted to pick up my phone n call him bt i noe i cldnt..cuz i'll juz start crying non-stop e moment i hear his voice..the one i miss so much. i was telling myself to stop being so dumb n yea..managed to swallow back all e sorrows, pick myself up again n began to mug once more. i really don noe wad's in me today.
i rmb rach being envious abt me hving * as an emotional support n hw much she wans one too. its really nt abt all e gd stuff u get outta a relationship..its hard to manage one. i find it so difficult to balance my studies n *. bt of cuz, it does feel happy to noe sum1's behind u always n loving u. but let me tell u..Love aint easy at all for eg. its really awful when it comes to missing tt person yet u cant do anyting abt it. sigh..tts wad im feeling right nw. im missing * so much tt i feel so upset. bt im sure God will take care of it:) juz lyk my sis says, u can always sing to Him. yea..i do tt too n it feels good. During tis period of stress, i feel tt my love for God has grown alot..i've beginning to tell him every ting tts happening in my life..small tings..big events. He's juz lyk my all time listener n i want to share wif him everyting n every part of my life. i want him to know...because i love him.
the Princess' thoughts ;
