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Friday, July 14, 2006

Thought of e day: WOOHOO!!! i love weekends!!

guess WADD?!?!?? tis is my 100th entry!!!!! a BIG day to celebrate!! ahahah..wadeva*roll eyes*. bt its kinda cool huh!?? 100th time im posting n telling u folks abt my life! e week was VERY hectic..i nearly died from dehydration, exhaustion..wad eva u can tink of. e weather is DAMN hot too. n my os are pressing in on me. ARRGGHH.. wadeva. i shall not tok abt crappy stuff on such a special post*reminder: its my 100th post* so im goin to tok abt sumting else.

rmb the days we used to tok every night? rmb the time we used to hv such a great time juz hearing each other's voice. on sum nights, there may b juz silence over the phone bt its good enough to noe u're over at the other end of it. i thought tis wld last.

the worst i feared finally came. my life was lyk a dark forest, light gradually seeps away. all i can feel was empty, fear, sadness within me. we promised we wld still be frens, n i took tt for real all the while. messages n occasional calls came along, ensuring me tt we're still buddies after all. slowly, i began to see light again at the far end of my forest. i longed to walk towards it, reachin it. sumtimes when we're exchangin our thoughts, i felt tt mayb we cld find back the past. there's always tis secret wish inside me, tt i cannot tell.

one day, u caught me by surprise, u threw me into the deepest ends of the darkness when u spoke those words. its wasnt u, i suppose? u're nt the person i noe whom will say those tings. i was taken aback. i was lost for words. i don noe hw to face u any longer. i wonder : "is this the real u?" all these hints me as if u're nt real right frm the start. i was the gullible one, to tink tt u're my only one, to tink tt i cld never find any1 whom i cld trust. u broke my heart. i hate it when ppl lie. i hate it when they don mean wad they said. y muz u make tt promise when u're nt even prepare to fulfil it n yet juz left it empty?? y muz u even b so nice to me n den hurtin me?? mayb u're right, i was the foolish, insignificant garbage can all along..the one tt don take tings seriously at all. mayb juz cuz i "don take tings seriously" n tts y i don realise tt u're such a jerk ALL ALONG.

u dashed my hope in love. u broke my heart of innocence. u damaged the confidence of mine n the trust i had for ppl. Fear was wad i faced then. i was afraid to trust. i was afraid to accept. i was afraid to even tink abt givin another chance, cuz i was frightened to be hurt. i cannot afford another empty promise. my forest grew scarier..darker..light i cld not see, hope i cld nt find.

i was walking..along the dark trails of the deserted forest. im desparate to find a way out. silence was deafening. den, i heard a voice. a voice calling for me. a voice filled with warmth. a voice there to lead me. i was happy, yet afraid. shld i go for it? shld i hold back n play safe? i was lost for directions. i called out to my Lord, askin wad i shld do. "take it" is the answer. i pluck up the little courage i've left n headed for it.

a light peered through the dark bushes. i see it. i feel it. i longed for it. slowly, i took his hands. Leading the way, he pushed off all the darkness, emptyin my heart of sorrows, filling it up wif happiness. more light, more light i soon see. the surroundings became clear again. i finally see the world outside the blurry vision of my tears. he's a friend..a friend i treasure. a friend whom noes hw to appreciate me. a friend i love. n indeed, a friend whom will never treat me lyk a garbage can. the road does nt end here. its a long journey ahead. i wanna progress, hand in hand along wif him. wad wld we end up as? only God noes. bt still i thank my Lord, for addin him into my life.

the Princess' thoughts ;