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Saturday, July 29, 2006

Thought of e day: its SPEECH n AAD day!

ok im nt exactly excited abt all tt had happened tis morning bt it was a relatively pleasant experience la. the prize giving was rather draggy bt e clips was quite good. stella ng is so pretty can!!! she dressed up so nicely for it!!! n her crescent life pics was so cute. hahaha. well..the sch assured us there were many stores for us to patronise but tt indeed was a lie - _ -

we were dead bored after touring ard the "stores". ahh..failure once again. hahaha. our mass dance was hmm..not v coordinated n no one noes where to stand n such. lack of energy too. bt nvm, we had fun la. the weather was damn hot tho. i can hear myself sizzling lor. hahahaha.

its been long since i've gone shopping!! not buying things but juz go walk ard the stores n window shop. im currently in a violent war wif homework, test n mock exams. its three is to one so im at the losing end. it aint fair!! those r buryin up my life man. all i can see is work after work. ARRGGHHH..nvm God is takin care of it.

sumtimes im so tired tt i asked myself wad im doin ALL these for? juz to get into a good JC? den?? wads nxt? i don even noe wad i wana be nxt time. the competition is heightening very rapidly n tt scares me. i don wanna be an exam slave. bt wad m i pursuing for??? a perfect o level cert?? den??? wad will it bring me?? many may say : "oh..good furture tt is." hw do u define a gd future den? a gd job? den wont tt means ALLL these piles down to one word---- MONEY. n tt sux..i hate to be money-minded sumtimes altho money is inevitable in every aspect of our lives.

well sumting more light hearted for nw. youth bbq!!! im kinda excited abt it. oh oh n planet shakers concert!!!!! PLANET SHAKERS!!! WOO!! its on the 8th n 11th respectively. so tt means tt week of mine wld be HAPPENING!! hahaa. one question pops into my head -- "wad shld i wear??" hahaha. n i still hv yet to come out wif a plan b4 the youth bbq aka hw to get there. i've got a "body guard" to escort me there tis time round..not e swooshy sports car of my sis. heehee=) make a guess if u're smart enough*winks* i needa tink of a way to get pass my empress dowager at home. she's scary. hahaha. ROAR.

WHY is there such a ting called "compatibility"??? n WHY issit all stuck n glued to parents' mind?? ahh..i don give a damn man. in my dictionary, there's reality too bt nt everyting is based on compatibility. i hv my own choice. im tryin hard to erase the " i need to protect u" image frm her mind. i need sum freedom. perhaps i relied too much on her love n tt she builds a protective shield ard me. she's gt the password, keys to open tt shield n as long as it doesnt please her, die die she wont let me go. somebody got a hammer to lend??

often, i hv tis strong urge to tell her the truth *bt tts of cuz after my os b4 i REALLY consider in doin tt*. bt of cuz the consequences will be..or i shld say definitely be disastrous. juz imagine a tsunami, earthquake, tornado, volcano eruption, hurricane, sea monster attack n alien invasion happening ALL at one time. ya tts hw bad. sista..u take care too. hahaa. u noe wad i mean. wads WRONG wif e ppl we messed wif?? wads wif the "go out n noe other ppl la" mindset? i don understand man. talkin n negotiations always end up wif an arguement. we're tired of it already. i really wonder when it will get thro ur head. ur intentions already got thro my head in case u kept tinkin we're still juz kids. i noe u mean good. but can u STOP, LISTEN n THINK abt hw we feel?????

the Princess' thoughts ;