My God is beautiful..all the time-
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Thought of the day: ouch...my heart hurts..
"u know its hard to say lor.. its e pple closest to u tt hurt u e most.... its coz u sorta expect alot from em? coz they're tt special to u.. and when they dont do wat u'd like.. yea.. it will hurt"....wad a perfect saying...i agreed...totally....my heart is aching now..so much..so much.tearing with disappoint...paining with tears...breakin with sadness...shatterin with anger..shreddin with hopelessness..
am i being very bad?? am i very irritating?? am i very annoying?? am i offendin u?? am i being mad??? am i mistreatin u??? TELL ME!!!! give me an answer!!!!!! i don wan excuse!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wan u to hear HOW HURT i feel!!!!! i wan u to noe..i wan u to understand..i wan u to noe how hurt i feel...i wan to noe how bad i feel...i don wan spoil our friendship...i juz wan u to noe..........
tears juz came streamin down my heart....bleedin with pain.....woundin it with sorrows...it hurts me to see yr coldness to me..it hurts to see ur seemed to be i-don-really-care-or-matter attitude... i hate it..i hate to hurt like tt...i don wan u to treat me like a stranger...cuz i never treat u lesser than a best fren.....i treated u fully..i treasure out relationship...hw every nite i prayed and thank God for yr presence...hw every time i m so grateful to hv fun with u...hw i wish our friendship would never end...hw i wanted u to be my best fren..........but little did i realise....tt..u din cared at all...
u neva reflect..u neva look at yrself...u neva tink again abt wad yr words mean to mean..u neva thought abt wad yr actions means to me..u neva see wad hurt u done to me..u neva reflect..u neva tink..u neva see e broken side of me.....
i juz wan to let u noe tt...i treasured our friendship...so i don wan u to b angry when u read it...and i don wan to spoil it..i juz wana let u noe hw i really tink abt u....and..hope u wont do it again..cuz i m full of cracks in my heart..i cant afford to shatter it...........................................
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