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Saturday, May 28, 2005

Thought of the day: my results sux...my days sux

oh my......oh man...oh freck...oh heck....oh wadeva!!!!! my results totally wrecked.....totally sux...sux sux sux sux sux sux sux sux sux!!!!!!!!!! it sux so much tt i don wanna tok anymore abt it...for those who r concern abt my depression, desperation, frustration and anger u can give me a hug..a kiss...a pat on shoulder...or juz a call will b so nice and enough... but juz neva tok abt my results or ask... it hurts ok? and for those who don care , juz leave me alone..

jie jie...how i wish u were here with me... at least i noe i wld hv an arms to embrace, a lips to kiss, a pair of ears to listen to me, a shoulder to cry on and of cuz...a heart tt will understand the pain in me... i sobbed so hard...it seems like everyting is dark and hopeless. i felt so useless, helpless, hopeless, and meaningless... i juz felt like dying....no one wld noe e anger, e pain, e regret, e sadness, e disgust, e stupidness i feel right here in me..... i m totally upset with myself...my confidence shredded, my determination ruined, my hopes dashed, my aims cracked, my lungs exhausted, my brain drained, my arms tired, and most importantly my heart, soul and mind broken....

i juz cant continue anymore....there isnt a way in front of me..i feel dizzy...i feel sick.... i juz cant stand up.....falling so helplessly into a pit....don noe when i will reach e bottom..it seemed so far.. wait a second....there isnt a bottom in a first place...its an endless pit....tt i will fall deeply into...and never get a chance to see light again..never get the chance to climb up again...........

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Sunday, May 22, 2005

Thought of the day: next week i m goin to die....

Results are definitely!! garanteely!! goin to slam on my table...greetin me with a huge!! enormous!! gigantic!!! blast of stress right in my chest......tt would make me suffocate mentally.....and i would hate myself physically for havin such a damnit stupid brain tt give me tt kind of damnit bloody results.....hai........wad am i goin to do?!??!?! how m i goin to face my parents!!?!? most importantly!! how m i goin to face myself??!?!!! y m i so stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bloggin is the way tt i can release off some steam and stresss.....so...xiao pei was right for DEMANDING me to start a blog.....hahaa...so thanks ah xiao kwee!!! hahaha....hmmm...

AND U GUYS NOE WAD???? i FINALLY!!!!!!!!!! bought my DREAM skirt!!!!! hahahhaha...although i thought of it very long ago.....always blamin myself for not picking it up last time and tried it and perhaps bought it when i first saw it...i m always like tt.....wanna buy someting?? wait........think..........den don buy cuz too ex.....HAI!!! i hate myself for always being so regrettin my choice...i missed out alot of clothings in this manner....xiao pei always steam up whenever i say " aiya!don buy la...." den later a few weeks later when i finally convinced myself tt i wasnt so ex after all and wan to go and take a look at it again...however i will always end up sayin " aiya!! why din i buy it last time....hai!! see la don hv le!!" den....watchin fr the side....xiao pei would " haiya!! told u to buy u don wan!! " and stomped off....hahhahaha!! i jus cant get off tis bad habit!!!!! hai............pls hlp me man....

anyway.....my dream skirt is so nice........so so nice.....plated some more!! i went to ZARA thrice but failed to find someting like xiao pei's(which is oso fr zara) . i was like so sad la...den i finally rmb some hundred yrs ago...i wanted a skirt fr topshop so much....but!!!!! i din buy!!! cuz it was 73.... but!! now i was too desperate to own tt sort of skirt...so i juz went to try my luck with MAN MAN!!! wad a cute gurl....anyway... i saw it!!!! yeah!!! and of cuz i wont let it slip off my clutches tis time.....hahaha!! i paid off at the cashier and brought it home satisfiedly!!! yeah man!! maybe it was man's luck too...haha... i m not always so lucky as e skirt was abt two mths ago i saw de....haha...

i shall stop here....don feel like goin on le.....buai bye!!!

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Thought of the day: AHHH!!!! i'm FREE!!!!!!

yo yo yo wadzup dudeZ???? HAHAHAHA!!! my exams finally is over!!! over!! over!!! even though it wasnt too good...but juz forget abt it..i don care a bit anymore abt that damn paper. HA!! so!! i wanna share the joy with my fellow gd buddies who are currently staring at my blog...heeezz...great... exams over means shopping is here!!!!! hahaha!!! great!!! wonderful man...thats the best thing i had ever done in my life....shopping!! i m goin to go roxy, ripcurl, mango, and of cuz ZARA...i swear to get a skirt from there!!! i wanted their skirts soo much!! juz tt i don hv e gut to part with my $$.....but!!! i toiled day and night for my exams....and xiao pei can prove tt..hahhaa...so i decide to reward for my hardwork!!!! and thats a ZARA skirt!!!! yeah!!! yippy hooray!!! i m goin out with xiao pei this sat!!!! oh man...how i miss the days i shopped with her....xiao pei!! here i come!!!! *lame...*hmm....wad shld i wear?? my black halter??*

the day i finished my exams(which is wed), i went out with three of my beloved frens..to.......ORCHARD!!! a place that i hv not been to for ages....cuz of the bloody exams....hai... anyway.. e bustop outside our school was SQUASHED by students goin to orchard....and e stupid bus wasnt here yet so we decided to take a cab instead!!! * it was me and claire idea...ha!* we went here and there shopping and lookin at stuff...screamin and shouting at cute little things we discover....hahah...was so fun....when OUT OF A SUDDEN!!!! *thunder* a TRYIN-TO-ACT-SMART senior of our sch...whom we DO NOT noe......shouted RIGHT ACROSS the fourth level of heeren to us....saying irritatedly " can u pls tuck in yr blouse??" to one of my fren.... FOR GOODNESS SAKE LA PLS!!!! WHO E HELL IS SHE LOR????? she has this so stupidly arrogant look.....that simply makes me puke la!!!! wads her freakin prob lo......don need to SHOUT ACROSS e place and make a fool out of yrself right!!!!....arrrghh.....juz spoils my day with tt ugly comment of hers.......shuckz...

then....we got too tired and went home liao...the details are too detailed for my blog....it will be too naggy to tok abt it....juz wan to share with u all how irritatin one of e seniors is.......don think tt u are a ANG MOH den u can juz scream at us with yr slang...so wad if u r a senior....not MINE!! i don hv such an irrespectful and ill-mannered one lyk u!!!!! :P!!!! so pissed off by her disgusting attitude......HMPH!!!!!!! kies....shall stop here.....pls read my blog often kies!!! luv u guys!!!

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