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Friday, March 04, 2005

Thought of e day: always depend on YOUSELF, no one wld b there 4 u when u r needed of hlp...and lit suX!!

motto of e day
- RELAX
- REFRESH
- RESHAPE
- REVITALISE

friend...wad is tt word suppose to mean...pls tell me e answer on my tagboard cuz i don noe wad tt suppose to be as i don hv one!!! arrgh.....no one noes wad i really mean man...mayb only jie jie and peixi..

betraying....a certain feeling tt NO ONE likes..i m sure they don...so neither do I!!! so u should noe how i felt when i m so hopelessly abandoned.ARRGH--its diffusing through me all around...suffocating me so badly.

help.....i m lacking from it recently...felt like an ant depriving from water in a dessert....cactus plants are ALL growin around me....storing so much water in them BUT refused to hlp....selfish stems...hurting me so deeply with their thorns.

pain....feeling that right nw....e cactus "men" might be tinkin "wads e big deal...juz a small ting wad...*shrugs shoulders*" it might means NTH to u...but i m tellin u it really leaves me an excruciating pain in my heart, soul and mind..

lets not tok abt those heartless souls anymore....tok abt lit.

LIT---sumting i m not good at, not used to, not familiar to, not SUCCEEDING IN!!!!! ARRGH... no one noe, no one understands, no one realise how DUMB i feel i m.....AHHH!!!!! cant i b alittle bit smarter?!?!??!?!?!?!?!! i m so angry of myself lor!!!!!!! fearful man----wad will u interpret it as.... tis person is afraid..or tis person is frightening???? of cuz is tis person is frightening rite...ISNT THAT COMMON SENSE?????? OR LOGIC????? can sumbody knock some form of sense into my head or sumting?!?!?!?!!... i cant stand my stupidity anylonger!!!!!!! wad m i tinking....wad m i tinking....wad e hell m i tinking!!!!!!!!!! why do i interpret it as tis person is afraid.....wads wrong with me??? wads e matter with my brain??? where has all my common sense GO????? FLOWN AWAY???? ARRGH.......pissed...pissed...juz super duper pissed...cannot make it man....tis kinda stupid pple lyk me juz seem so out of place in school.......u don noe hw much i feel lyk dying right nw...u don noe hw bad i felt...u don noe hw regret and guilty and STUPID I FELT!!!!!!! arrgh.....nobody understands me......really...only God and me. no one else will do....ever... if there is...why isnt there any one there to give me a hug...y is there no one consoling me....y is there no one to hear me out...only my blog. y is there no one to listen to my cries,my grumbles, my regret, my guilt, my sorrows, my depressions....why...why isnt there a pal, a fren, a person to be with me when i m down.... God....where are u....come to me pls...
jie...how i wish u were here...hw i wish u were here to give me hug of encouragement...i m collasping..i m feelin so down..tis seem to be e most diffcult moments of my life.....jie....hw i wish u wld b here to give me moral support....jie jie!!! i wan u to be here!!!!!

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