Saturday, February 19, 2005
the corner of my eye juz couldnt hold back my sorrows when i see e empty room and e empty bed. i stepped in....searchin for yr presence wich cannot be seen... feeling so lost and sad.....i wept.
i miss u........thats all i wan to say....i really miss u... it was so hard not to cry but i still held on at e airport.....embracing u for e last time tis yr......nxt time it would b nine mths later. i couldnt help but feel so so upset....thinkin tt my sis will be flyin off in e nxt moment. i don wan u to leave badly...i don wan u to go. my heart juz wept and sobbed when u disappear behind e walls....
i cried so loudly and painfully....staring at yr bed...i wish u were home.
my footsteps were so heavy....my mind so confused. i don hv e mood to study at all for e day..juz because u were away... no one could understand how much tt sorrow is in me....
i cried myself to sleep...memories of us flashed across...i cried even louder as time pass by...knowin tt u would be somewhere far from sight. my eyes were swollen by my tears......it took me an hr to finish crying.....i m seriously sad to see u leave.
i really don noe why..today i m extremely sad upon seeing u goin through e gates of departure...how i really wish u were now back here...to hug me...to kiss me....to console me...to joke with me... but all tis would only come in nine mths time.....AHHHH!!!!!! i m so sad lor.....
jie....take care of yrself k...don cry...(although i cried lyk don noe wad), god will b with u and me... i m sure he will heal my sorrows...i m sure he will help u in yr life in aus. and always rmb...me...mummy..and daddy will wait for u here k!!! come back quickly!!!! we all miss u!!!
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