i hv a hurricane of feelings rushing through me now..and mixture of thoughts tt i couldnt read. how exactly m i feeling rite now??happy or sad? relieved or stressed? relaxed or tensed? concerned or jealous? glad or angry? painful or soothing? wad e hell m i now!! wad makes me feel lyk tt!!! the space tt used to b mine is gonna be taken away..i don feel anyting rite....or m i juz deceivin myself..i don noe!!! my mind is in a swirl now....blank and empty. i dropped it long ago..didnt i? i lost it long ago...i gave it up long ago....didnt i? wad is on my mind?? sumbody hlp me.. i m so messed up now...i cant face it anymore....i don noe wad to do..i seemed to be losin my direction...i gave it up first!! den y m i feeling tis way!! y??? Tell me Y!!! --searching through the forest...i lost my way..--